Dreams only last one night but love can last

holidays period

2011-04-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

my whole holiday was spent working at USS, thats a damn cool place that ii ever worked before...ii love the environment, the ppl but nt really irritating guests...and work at Robinsons and Tangs as well...as usual, its a boring place, but than, ii have no choice, have to work and earn money...sians sians sians...

days of holiday pass so fast...it just seems that a month is over alrdy...there is gd news from sch - results, enrollment to diploma plus program and perfect timetable for sem 3...grats to me...but my days of holidays has nt been that happy...hais...lots of things happen...ii also dun knw what ii really wan...this sem 3 will be a very busy period for me...ii suppose its bad!

treasure and cherish those impt person around uu...but for me, ii cant feel that...nvm...things is hard to continue saying...long story...ii only love emo songs...thats awesome, and ii will reflect on a lot of things that happen...humans are weird, when uu gt a problem, another tries to help uu solve it fully, they think that its so damn easy for them to say, but when it comes to action, its different...its easier said than done...so when that person has gt problem, uu try to help him/her solve, they think that its redundant, as ii am in no position to do that...so what can ii say? win liaos lorhs...hais!

left 1week and 3days before sch reopen, so no one to go out & ii am damn busy! hais!ntg to do, say or done! emptiness is the only thing...

14o111

2011-01-14T21:42:00.004+08:00

its friday again, had a super hard weekdays, all schooling days are packed with projects, tutorials & lectures, and peer tutoring somemore without enough slp daily, ranging frm 3hrs to 5.5hrs each day till nw...so shag sia...

monday went to meet him, something happen, than emo all the way...

tues, 9-7, than met him at NEX, bought a spec and ate pizza hut...

wed, schooling till 5, went to someplace to get something...reach hm around 8.30...chiong project, researching for articles and read miec for thurs tutorial...slept at 3.11am

thurs, 9-7 again...than went hm and slack....watch tv and eat...omfg!

fri, 8-12, lucky no tennis make up lesson, shiok...but damn sians, never start reading on anything yet... :(

obse test is coming on next tues, and ii haven write my notes :( hais...no mood, think ii am missing something frm my daily routine...sians...he is outside, went to someplace, normally this tym is cam tym, and nw, dun have, ii seems to have lost something...ii felt lonely & sians nw... :(

researching for something, and found this website! omg! http://www.funnzie-cam.com/instant.html & http://instaxlovers.blogspot.com/
polaroid camera is cool, but will ii be wasting money if ii buy it? film is exp lorhs...arghh! the mickey film damn nice...omg!

blogshop that sells super duper nice accessories...
http://smoothysilk.blogspot.com/

o9o111

2011-01-09T14:35:00.000+08:00

this few days damn sians, a lot of shocking news that idk it shld be a gd news or a bad news that ii shldn't be hearing...hais...frm this and that...having a very confused mindset...actually it has alrdy been set to be a final decision, just that, ii just felt bad towards some of them...ii really dun knw what ii shall do...ii let go, but they didn't...ii always feel awkward to them, dun knw hw to face them....its like, confusing :( hais...

sch really sucks, once ii go back to sch, they said there is 2 test coming, first is obse on 18th, second is statistic test 2 on the 19th...but gd news is that ii didnt fail any of my common test module, thats the most lucky thing...phew...the worse is actually miec, waited till thurs, saw my results, ii was over the moon, as long as ii didnt fail any, hehes...overall still quite ok...hahas!!!!

my skin complexion sucks sia...pimples, dark eye circles, not enough slp...and ii just realized that my cough havent really healed fully, this sucks ttm... :( ppl say that rest more is to be able to walk through a further route, yes ii agree, but tym dun permit... :(

so bored, did ii make the wrong decision? did ii do wrong frm the start? did he said the truth? am ii very bad? maybe ii am, ii just cared about myself, yes? yes? ii think it is...

withdrawing frm uu all, this is better? ii avoid uu, uu say ii dun wan to be friend...ii close to uu, leading uu to have the wrong impression...what shld ii really do? ii am really confused!!!

what uu see in front doesnt mean that its the truth! wrong perception! are uu able to understand a nt? uu say uu do, but ii dun think so...ii hate myself!

04-01-2011

2011-01-04T13:49:00.000+08:00

its finally 2011....although ii was sick throughout my whole holidays, a lot of things happen regardless of happiness & sadness...its boring & tiring cos of working nonstop till the 2nd week, happy cos ii met someone new, and he gave me somethings that most ppl dun, sad cos of rejecting someone a lot of tyms...ii dun wan to hurt him, but end up ii hurt him...

23-12-2010
went out with my family except kor kor to haw par villa, the ten courts of hell was the most interesting thing there that ii haven seen...than ate at tampines...went sheng siong buy food...

24-12-2010
went out with kk to pasir ris, he gave me a christmas gift, and ii didnt gave him any cos ii didnt prepare...

25-12-2010
met bai jing jing after work, went to esplanade and than eat ice cream...eat & chit & chat...

31-12-2010
met hy & kk to esplanade there to countdown...damn funny incident happen...those kiasu indians kept pushing, dun knw hw to wait, ii hate it, than hy scold, ii laugh like mad again...than we sat dwn & ate yam ice cream..after that ii played my veggie samurai, addictive man, ii gt high score 2153, they cant beat me, ii so happy! yeah! when we went hm, the cirle line train door suddenly opened, scare hy to hell! ii still can rmb the image, thats yy mrt always says do not lean on the train doors, nw ii understand what it meant...than ii walked hm, thought that there was no bus anymore...halfway through, ii saw a bus 80 pass by, ii ji tao sian diao...arghh!!

01-01-2011
this is gonna be a gd yr, first kiss to hy, cos we saw a couples there intimately la-ji-ing, damn funny! laugh like mad...the fireworks was cool & nice, but than, kanna blocked by big building...sians diao!!!

02-01-2011
went to tian guo, yi mai hui, eat foods & stuffs, than went hm do tutorials...

03-01-2011
back to sch, slept only 5hrs, cant slp, sians...why ppl no need go sch except for poly students :*(
than met BJJ, went to aljunied to eat than to his hse, met his parents, shocking but funny...he so fortunate... aww...must treat him like da shao ye liaos lorhs...

happenings

2010-12-16T22:31:00.002+08:00

16.12.2010

today is the date whereby my mum and dad 26th wedding anniversary and its the last test for this term, which is miec, this srsly sucks, the paper is a definite killer, it might make me fail, so if ii fail, it will be a gone case, and it willl lead to KPT suaning me to hell, idk hw either...v scare that she will suan me when sch reopens...hais...

study for what? study so hard, end up dun even knw hw to apply the concept to the questions, all thanks to her...if ii pass, ii happy, if fail, be prepared to let her suan.... god bless me that tym liaos lorhs....

holiday officially starts at 3.05pm, but ii am nt happy at all... :( ntg can describe my feelings nw...

ii have also decided to forget about him, we are over, and wun be together again, dun knw why, when ii see his family pic, than ii decided to forget him...back to friends as per normal if he is alright...that day when talk to him, plus everything so stressed up, nearly, dun even wan to study for test, but than after ii cried, ii can be able to study...

ii am beginning to feel that ii am nt as gd as the past...in the past, ii am independent, not afraid of a lot of things, but nw, ii feel so dwn, no confident in myself, whatever ii do is meaningless...idk what ii shall do also...hais...

just read someone blog, ii have no idea that he has a blog, after ii read it, ii suppose ii knw what is he thinking of nw, he treat me so good, good until ii really dun knw hw to say, he can sacrifice other things just to accompany me, but medicine for me when ii am sick, spend a bomb on my birthday which is just a normal & simple day to others, but its very special to me...yet ii didnt appreciate, ii always keep being so fed up with him, a bit than scold him, ii knw its nt right, but than other than this, ii really dun knw what ii shall do, ii am confuse, idk whether to accept him a nt, idk whether its love or its because he is too good to me, thats why ii accept him...but than if ii dun accept, ii just felt bad towards him...srsly, ii am in a confusing state of mind! ii really dun knw what ii shld do...hw? my mind & heart just dun work together, idk what ii wan nw!!! ii hate myself for being such a person like this...ii am afraid of hurting him as well...he has seen me through so many r/s, happy and sad times, why would he still like me? ii dun understand as he is quite an introvert :(

as for school, things always dun go smoothly for me, ii scare ii cant make it to lvl 2 cos ii might be failing one module...things that ii learn nw is getting harder and harder, ii dun like, but ii cant do anything, cos ii need to get this cert, if nt, ii really will be ntg in the future...

as for friends, ii missed my ite friend - felicia, but than ii dun have tym to spare to go out...ii also missed my cdac friend - sukping, secondary sch friends & my darling hweeyee...ii <3 uu all , but hard to go out with uu all cos ii am broke, need to work :(

as for all my darlings in poly, they are a bunch of fun loving ppl that ii ever met in the whole of my life...can uu imagine that, because of them, ii became more outgoing and happy, if nt ii might have just quit my poly alrdy, its too stressful for me to take it...cos ii cant take it and they kept supporting & helping me whenever ii have doubt on sch work...other than sch work, we also talk about out personal lifestyles and so on...but of cos, somethings are still kept as a secret in order nt to spoil my image within them...hahas!

the beginning of my holidays doesnt seems to be a holiday, it just seems to be study period for some modules, ii srsly hate sch!!! ii wanna enjoy it but than ii am demoralized by this miec paper... :( ii wan go drink, so sad :( ii wan go slack with hweeyee, so we can voice out things that we wan to say, whatever also can, no secrets :(

lastly, life sucks! emo emo emo all the way, the songs that were being shuffled, all emo type also, my com really knows me well <3 my com..

13 dec 2010

2010-12-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

misses, misses, misses, ii missed uu :'( if tym turns back, what will ii do?
stupid studies, why gt test? ii am gonna peng kui liaos!
feel like giving up, ii really really gonna break down liaos...
test on wed and thurs, haven study much, what shall ii do? ii really dun knw, no mood to study :(

13 dec

2010-12-13T21:21:00.001+08:00

misses, misses, misses, ii missed uu :'( if tym turns back, what will ii do?

1o111o

2010-11-11T15:03:00.000+08:00

today's date is like binary number, overslept and slp till 6.30, awake by mummy, than wake up, hurry bath and went out, met huilin in sch at 8plus, than went to makan place to eat...during the trip to sch, a guy sat beside me and than knock on me, slp straight till the bus stop and never wake up, kana scare by him, duhh, its kind of awkward when ii see him, diao...than went to atrium to mark my miec tutorial answers...than ii am feeling so slpy, ii scare ii fall aslp during bstats lecture...shucks...so hard man...arghh!

during break, went to find zhilin, shuting, rachel, yushan, we chat about stuffs, some scary & funny things happen...really never knw when ppl never says, as they dun show things on the surface...so, ii am so shocked to hear somethings...hahas...

than went to OBSE tutorial, that teacher dun let us use lappy, idiot sia, all answer inside lehs, sians diao! cant use anything...than end at around 4.35, rush hm than go to work...eat & get changed, than rush to work, reach at 7...boss schedule put me till 10, but auntie wee tells me ends at 11, diao! super shag luhhs!

went hm together with han tian, than we took train to hougang, so late, reached at 1145pm...shag! than he go his way, ii go my way...reach hm, change wugui's tank water, than bathed and chat with my friend and otw to slp at 1.30 ii think... thats all!

o9111o

2010-11-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

today was such a tiring day for me, slept roughly 8 to 9hrs for 2 days alrdy, super shag...going sch with huilin was fun, hahas, a lot f interesting happens...than bstats tutorial, so blurry...sians lorhs...hais...met zhilin in the morning at atrium, she so funny luhhs, than she and jessie walked to blk 72 together, dating sia! arghh! jk...

ii am so bored, hais...went to eat pancake at canteen 2, than go BIT workshop & tutorial, 5 minutes presentation than start of with discussing of project...my brain is nt working, than ii kept on can't click with them, they say this, ii say that, machiam out of point :( like never do anything regarding the project...

class ends at 3, went to atrium, waited for meixin, went to PS to buy shorts, ii wanna buy tennis racket! but kind of exp... :( she is so sweet, she bought me a chocolate crossiant... :D than after that ii met koonkiat to go NLB to study after dinner at BB there...than do finish my miec tutorial...its like finally, hope ii am on the correct track...

take bus hm, saw korkor when alighting and asked him to help me take my lappy home, so relieved!

o8111o

2010-11-08T21:31:00.001+08:00

actually dun wan to come blogging...

had bcomm presentation, brought cakes to sch to present on mr george quek, still fine...last presenter of the day...than went to do itb ppt, and met meixin, we actually wanted to go to buy shorts for our s&w lesson, but, she went out with her ex classmates, so postpone, felt paisei if her friends went out without her...so ii left first, than she called me to say she want to go out with me, but ii still decided to left first...so ii went home...

than played with gui gui and do some revision, but today's pace was fking slow...ii haven do anything at all...tmd!

ii am too sad...my gui gui just died...before that, ii was playing with it, talking to it, changing the water...but than, around half an hr ltr, ii found it dead, tried to revive it by touching it, but it gave no reaction :( it was in reverse side, than mouth was opened...ii was super shocked, hw can it died when ii was playing with it just nw? ii dun understand...ii really dun understand, ii talked to him, he reacted, and opened his eyes to look at me while ii am cleaning his arms and legs and shell...it was my favourite tortoise out of the 4...hw can he died without even saying good bye to me? seriously sad, crying nw...he had been with me from 4 september when ii bought it together with ah de...but today 8 november, he left me... :'( 2 mths 4 days of fun with guigui...ii missed uu alot...ii am sry for never take care of uu well enough, ii dun even knw what happen to uu...ii am sry :(

another wugui, xiaobai, its nt eating any food that ii gave him to eat, idk why nt eating as well..think ii will be bringing it to the vet...hais...

a lot of things happen this few months, have bf, than some fights/quarrels, than break up...so, its a cycle again...ii have decided nt to have bf again in this 2.5yrs till ii complete my poly life, ii am tired of all those sadness...seriously, ii cant take it...

why do everyone have to leave me just when ii needed them most?

ii think ii am just someone unimportant towards someone..someone who doesnt have any feel, someone whom uu might hate/regret forever, cos its just someone unimportant in ur life due to some problem...no matter what, ii still can rmb what uu said to me, ur warmth, ur voice, ur expression, ur smile, ur whatever thing, and where ever we go, ii still can rmb... but the only thing is that, it all goes down to the drain... :(

sad things happens together & together & together...hais...life still goes on...when can ii die? anyone let me knw pls, at least ii can do whatever ii wan to...just like, my gui gui, who look at me before his last breath :'(

last thing, SCH SUCKS!

27o81o-19o91o

2010-09-20T00:12:00.001+08:00

ii was trying hard to study for the 3 weeks of study break cum yog break, but end up, ii went out to shop, play, meet dear and work except for studying, damn jialat...

when the exams come, ii was struggling to understand for the last tym before ii went in for exams, damn relax for accounting...lols!!! than the others - management, macroeconomics and finally law...stupid maec falls on 4th sept...it was dear's birthday!!! than finish exam ii so happy, cos ii can celebrate his birthday together & can wear couple shirt colours...but end up, ii wore grey he wore black...even though was a bit disappointed but nvm luhhs, cos he cant find...& ii bought him a bracelet with his name "Ah De" engraved on it...he said he likes it..hahahs...ii am happy also...went to ECP to fly kite & ate lunch at kallang...than we bought gui gui & wugui...one at his hse and the other at mine...so cute lorhs...

than ii brought gui gui hm, the name was given by dear...so ii wan my gui gui to have the same birthday as dear as well, as its the first day we adopted him...than my didi also wanna yang wugui, we bought another 3 again....damn siao lorhs...total 4 wugui at my hm...but he lazy to yang...

after the final exams, on 8th sept...ii went hm & never go out cos gt bai bai...than 9th start working...so boring luhhs...so from than on, ii always work and off day clean my hamster cage and guigui's tank de water...

ii bought something for him again, haven gave him yet, was thinking whether he will like it a nt...hw would he react...today, ii just felt that he was so cold to me...after work, went to somerset, ii wan buy shoe, but that one so dirty, so end up ii never buy, clothes also...sians lorhs...ii wan that bag, shirt, and shoes...but...hais...ii have been feeling so cold for the whole day today...dun knw why so jialat...hais... :( maybe its a symptom of bad things that is going to happen, ii feel like going to see a fortune teller about my life...is it smooth or rocky? ii really dun knw....damn sians...hais...

koonkiat birthday on 20th sept...lols!!! ii am surprise ii am the first to send him birthday msg on the wall... :D

26o81o

2010-08-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!
my name represents this:

C: People cant help but check u out

A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have

R: You love to kiss

O: Best kisser ever

L: Awesome kisser

Y: Worth waiting for....

N: Beautiful

but ii think no link =.=

anyways, ii just help didi do a doraemon lantern for 3.5hrs =.= damn it, its super tiring...

21o81o - 23o81o

2010-08-23T23:11:00.001+08:00

21o81o
went to courts expo sales, was looking out for a camera, end up ii really bought a camera, happy sia...it was a samsung brand, i like...yeah... :D cost $189 with 8gb memory card...than went to robinson expo sales buy brandless perfume & maybelline mascara, sians, dun have the liquid eyeliner that ii wan... :( but nvm, still gt the camera...

the bottle damn nice lorhs

than daddy came, and something v sians happen, hais...we ate at tampines than to giant to shop for didi derhs bolster...sians...than went hm...slept at 3am

22o81o
woke up at 8plus, met dear in the morning around 10am, than he came in my hse to rescue me cos my key is with him, super funny, before he came, ii still ask him where to meet, lols!!! bus stop somemore...hahas...than went to blk 501 to eat, and walked to hougang mall, eat ice cream than went to work...sians, v bad things lorhs..ii hate CP...around 5plus, mrs chan still called me to ask me whether ii wan to meet her tml in sch to help me with poa, so ii agreed...than another person call me, asked me whether wan to work part time, than he will call and check for me...hope got news, so ii can change job...stupid ting ting, ask me wait for her, than she walk diff route, sometimes so angry :@ slept at roughly 1am

23o81o
woke up at 6, mummy prepare a custom-made subway bread...so full...hahas...but is damn nice, met yushan at around 7, lols...bus 74 run. we took 74e...so cold sia, lend her my jacket to use...than meet zhilin at 8.20am, walk to blk 72 to look for teacher...consult her for poa till 11am...super long tym sia...tired lorhs...than went home, met mummy & daddy for lunch at blk 435...than something happen again...hais...

mummy make de

met kk at 3plus, studied at mac till 7 when hy come, than went up to eat breakfast, so funny, stupid hy do stupid and retard action, so kept slapping her...hahas...went home at 9plus, watched chnl 8 than chnl U the 10pm show, cried again cos it just seems so touching and sad... :(

others in fb, damn slow, ii lazy to wait, is like super long... =.=

2oo81o

2010-08-21T01:12:00.000+08:00

slept at 4am, wake up at 12plus, cos dear dear sms me, than ii finally wake up...lols!!! than ate breakfast, watched yog- trampoline, walao ehs, interesting and nice...it seems fun but not for me...lols!!! the spring might just break...hahas...than brother give problem again, sore throat soon...
ii bought dear sugar coated pizza & he bought me mango (cake/crossiant), so sweet right...met dear at yishun, ate pasta mania - al funghi & veggie supremo pizza, nice lehs...lols!!!

my mango thingy from dear, sweet hors...

dear enjoying his pizza, its delicious...

our leftover pepsicum...lols!!! done by dear....hahas... the love is made of chilli...he still use tissue to make the shape...so xi xin...thanks dear... :)

me & him.. <3

went his hse watch tv with him, hehes...than went home, forget to take my key, due to his sudden tickle attack...arghh...than left at his hse, borrowed key from freddy...lols!!! lucky sia...than at hm hear a lot of siao kia shouting and screaming =.= at this time 12-1plus...

19o81o

2010-08-19T23:28:00.000+08:00

today so shiok lorhs, wake up go eat breakfast @ 356, rotiprata, than buy bread...than go mall, pay HDB thingy, than shop around there...come back use com...than prepare dinner, lols!!! my wanton, gt a lot of weird shape initially, but eaten...lols!!! and its all fried by my didi, pro sia...than went to punggol park to gether with him to exercise, shyt sia, he lousy...cant run, so we walk, and ii walked backwards...lols!!! than ii saw sebastian, but ii never called him, cause he was cycling with his gf, so sweet, he ferry her...hahas...ii scare she jealous sia, ii think they are together for quite long lerhs...pro sia...nvm...ii also hope ii can...below is the pics of my dinner...still gt 2 dishes, didnt take picture of it...lols!!! but it was superb...finally gt rice to eat...hahas...

moth lehs while ii was watching tv...so nice right? idk who is it luhhs, but it linger in my home for quite a while...maybe some relative...

18o81o

2010-08-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

doing the same routine again...went to work...hahas, it was funny, ii reached and punched card at 1118am, same as ytd...lols!!! than went there, talk to jenny, help her do the fb thingy...damn funny sia...

went to break at 4pm with the sintex auntie...she eat damn fast...lol!!! than ii stayed there, eat my tau suan and toasted bread...use fb for a while using wifi...than went back to work at 5...so bored, ii stand there for almost 20mins, than boss come...wtf!!! ii was playing games at that moment...lucky he make noise, if not, he stand beside me see me play games ii also dun knw...lols!!! damn scary can a nt, somemore today sales nt good... :(

than went home at 9.20...so boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! watched tv and news a while...than bathed, wash shoe and found out that it spoil liaos...kns...need buy a new one liaos...

17o81o

2010-08-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

sians lorhs, today gt to work...hais...11.30 to 9...end up extending to 9.30...

as usual, it was boring when it comes to work, especially nw, yog, schooling, working ppl, where got customer sia? slack, smses & talk to my colleague...damn sians lorhs...whole day only sell 3 items...damn jialat...my competitor sell so much lehs... :( than darran entertaining sia...keep saying all those things...lols!!!

my dear de sms make me smile like mad...he said :
i love u
u have a nice everything
u make me smile
u should kiss kiss me more
someday i will make u my laopo
u + me = lao fu qi
if i saw u now i will hug u & kiss non stop
i wan to _____ for uu & _____ uu :$
i would build a paradise for us
i will sing anysong for u
we will lang man under the rain

its so sweet that ii kept laughing...

than saw hweeyee de tag on fb, she tag me on the ocean heaven, ii secretly laugh at food junction again...the hand and what kk says...hen xiang slap hweeyee lehs!!!!!!!!! lols!!! ii bth

than went to amk, get something so nice...hahas...dear dear anticipating barhs...let uu see on fri...but bad news is that he kanna confine on sat, and ii have to work on sun...so we lose 2 days of meeting time again...but nvm, gt our future...wahahas... :D

16o81o

2010-08-16T23:27:00.000+08:00

went home after breakfast at 9plus...than bathed, washed my ytd derhs clothes...so scare still reek of that smell...so washed alrdy, go wryte notes...and than blow dry my hair, dear dear de sms so cute, dun let me dan xing bout uu can a nt, hurry go slp, sayang uu while uu slp...so sweet sia...ii just love the way he is...hahas...

than slept from 11plus till 3plus, and woke up...than use com to play things, watched a v touching video clip on fb, and shared it, ii cried like mad sia...just dun knw why, the tears just dropped out when ii see the soldiers wearing the shirt and appear in front of their loved ones, than they hug each other and cried...it just seems to be me in the scene...so touching...

initially have nasi lemak to eat, all thanks to kaihong for making everyone have to eat maggie mee...than we just sat dwn at living room, damn shiok luhhs, ii watched tv all the way sia...from 5plus till 11pm...pro...all the show so nice...hahas...long tym never watch tv lerhs...somemore for so long...meanwhile was sms & msn-ing dear dear...he so cute...hees...than helped hweeyee do some blog thingy...lols!!!

ii am slping soon, have promised dear to slp at 1200/0000...he even asked me to report strength...so cute luhhs...ii burst into laughter in the living room just nw, lucky nt that loud, if nt my mum might send me to IMH...lols!!!

ii miss uu, dear... :$

15o81o - 16o81o

2010-08-16T05:47:00.002+08:00

on 15 aug, ii slept till 11plus, than woke up, to my horror, my auntie came to look for me, and ii gt cramp...than ate breakfast cum lunch and found out there is some kind of wormlike thingy (shell) in the vegetables, fk man, damn disgusting, ii throw away the leftover food... :(

than use com and wait for hweeyee to come my hse, initially said she wan to come at 1,end up came at 3...diaos...plan was almost destroyed... :( than ii helped her make up...like chio bu lorhs... hehes, all my "jie zuo", thanstill helped her to sew her cardi...wapiang...undo and redo lorhs...damn it...ii didnt even sew mine myself but helped her, see ii so good...so she owed me 1 subway meal...

chio bu hors...my artpiece...lols!!!

than left at 5, to hunt for some gifts for my darling janice...and we booked a movie 'ocean hunter', this was damn touching...omg...as ii gt put eyeliner, ii cant cry, but ii did cry, so sad lorhs...it was super terrible feeling...

than at vivo, there was a pair of stupid parents with one innocent girl...the dad was pushing the pram down the escalator w/o buckling the belt, than the small girl just fell off and rolled down...OMFG!! it was super pain luhhs!!! than her face was red and cried loudly... ouchie...ii felt so pain for her, and she was so innocent to experience that...

ate dinner at PS after movie...than went to meet janice at orchard plaza as we were going to neverland...hy still tried to scared kk for the recent fighting case there, kk was scare the shit out of him...hahas...than her friends came, we went to neverland and sat...than 1145, ii met alvin, yutai and friends they all to give her a surprise birthday cake and their appearance, than walked in and sang the birthday song for her...she was super happy and touched, tears nearly came out from her eyes...than enjoyed till 4.30,

HAPPIE BURTHDAE JANICE, I LOVE UU!!!

and THANKS DEAR FOR NOT SLPING COS UU ARE WORRYING BOUT ME...SRY FOR NT LETTING UU SLP...I LOVE UU TOO :D

preparing for the surprises

more pics on her blog, will steal once she upload...lols!!!

we went to this lan shop at parklane...blogging nw...ltr going for mac breakfast, so hungry lerhs...yeahs...ii shall stop now...

14o81o

2010-08-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

woke up at 8, went running with dear & go for breakfast...than go home, went to swimming @ anchorvale there together with hy & dear dear, play like mad-the slides and jacuzzi, and drink a lot of disgusting water sia, ii kanna sunburn...super kua zhang, only for a while...frm 1 - 5, roughly there, somemore the weather is like a while good a while bad...went to jacuzzi, a girl kept sitting so close to dear, ARGHH!!! :@ than he need to move near me cos of that girl, than cannot "xiang shou"...hy keep seeing guys lorhs, and saw that ang moh who appear in chnl 8 the chinese thingy...than she disturb them...lols!!! super funny...

than go subway dinner again, hahas...so nice, the veggie patty than dear go hm and changed to meet his friend...than went for walk at sk than mrt to hougang...saw him waiting for train as well, so shocked sia...hahas...and so qiao...really fated... muahahas..
than went home...boring...

13o81o

2010-08-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

firday the 13th, somemore on the 7th mth...

study a bit again...than met dear for movie followed by dinner @ pasta mania...watched salt...damn nice lehs...than walked home...

things doesnt seems to be the same...dun knw yy, is it due to ytd stuffs or is ii too sensitive...

hate sch, srsly...ii wanna quit sia...wu you wu lui duo zi zai...hais :(
teeth like turning slanted due to the wisdom teeth at the back...damn pain...hais...
shoulder aching too...hais...

so many hais, can go competition liaos...

12o81o

2010-08-13T00:49:00.001+08:00

slept for almost 10hrs if ii am nt wrong, woke up, do facial mask while studying, peel off mask somemore, damn freaking pain luhhs...than went to eat breakfast cum lunch at blk435 there, than go home, watch tv, wait for didi to come home...he eat, ii bathed, and prepared to go out...

went to little india do eyebrow threading...damn pain luhhs...ii yao jin ya gen lorhs... :'( tears drop out from my eyes...pain sia...drank chendol...normal only...and went to tekka mall, shop in and sheng shiong...spend a lot again...send mummy and didi to hougang...than take all the way to punggol while waiting for kk, cos he never reply me...sians...ii wait and wait...than ii slept on mrt, just when ii open my eyes, ii saw kk with his friend...than he called me and ii answered, he kana shocked...hahas...

than went to aljunied there to meet hy on mrt, damn funny, she say ii am the best... lols!!! so great..we went to bugis, roma deli there to eat dinner, all set meal...hahas...nice nice food...so full...than went to iluma to shop for somethings, but cant find...than went to play arcade...wasted $30...hais...each person $10...just experience, it was quite fun, but ii still dun really knw hw to play...so stupid...

than somethings happen with me and him*...than my attitude gone worser...bad mood all the way...hy and kk so suay...so sry for my bad attitude... :(

than went to eat durian $10 at aljunied...lols!! that malaysian guy damn funny, keep dun wan to give up...than hy tell him that ii gt bf, than he gave up...lols!!! than otw hm play games...and talk and we reached my hse bus stop...waited for bus with them and went up home...

11o81o

2010-08-12T00:47:00.001+08:00

woke up at 9 to prepare to go to work again...sians...was very reluctant to go...than reach there around 11...slack at canteen again till 1130 and go in to work...study in the meantime and zi lian for a while...ah ting so bad, keep bullying me... :(

than went to lunch with her, tau suan, tidbits and shop around...go back to work after an hr...sians..than cindy came...kana nag by her for saying that ii dun knw hw to do sales, insted of the KING KONG brand...ii just replied, go dig them over lorhs...nb sia...so tulan, everytym like that...

met hy after work, she so good...wait for me to end work than we go 313@somerset eat subway, wapiang, the first tym in my whole lifetime that ii ate subway, it was nice, but cannot always eat, if nt will become broke...hahas...than janice called to asked us to meet, weisheng drive, ah xiang was inside as well...than janice so good, tell me wrong info, say frm 313 go to OC the traffic light there, wapiang... than ii run, and she say go back to 313 de marvelous cream there =.= ...so pekchek, somemore after dinner lehs...still need to run...

than he drive us to marina barrage, slack, talk, and something very funny happen...weisheng wanna get a plump malay girl's number, laugh like mad...damn kajiao sia...ah xiang go and take the danger sign away and put at the other side...the guard so funny luhhs...hahas...we took lift to the rooftop, than she followed a bangalah out cos of the nice ringtone... LOLS!!!

than he send us home...ii still rmb, ii kept sliding on the seats after ah xiang gt down...lols!!! than come home blog again... :)

1oo81o

2010-08-10T23:56:00.002+08:00

woke up at 8+am today, received my mum's call, ask me wake up in case ii am late for work...than ii "nua" till 9 than woke up to prepare after that 3 alarm...so tired sia...brought my maec notes out to study, until nw haven even finish one chpt...pro...

bath, make up, eat & watch tv, walk - bus - mrt - walk to work at CP today...sians...reached at 11, than sit at canteen till 1130...wanted to buy drinks, end up the machine eat my money...$1 w/o any drinks, than the cleaner auntie use her card to help me buy a milo...so paisei sia, ii rejected her offer but she keep wanting...paisei, but she was kind... :)

after that, reached my counter, as usual, stocks came, and ii put the price tag and place on shelving...8 cartons in total, put price tag till around 12 -1 plus...than after that 1 plus went for a roughly 40min break at the ipoh curry rice shop, eat black forest cake and one green wheatgrass drink - $5.30...than go back, no mood to serve...hais...than slack till 6 plus, went for another 20 min break eat peanut thick toast at toast box - $1.50...than go back slack and talk to keith...gt a lot of things to chat, but guess tml wun have cos is cindy there.. :( ii dun feel like serving, so every cust ii let keith go...lols!!! damn slack...than around 8plus...gt no choice, have to serve a cpl, cos keith is serving another cust...than ii served them, and they bought a lkatex pillow $169...lols!!! promote a little bit nia...and they get so exp derhs pillow...hahas...good...

black forest cake

left work at 9pm...than walk - mrt - walk - bus - home... than eat some stuffs...feeling very empty...tired somemore...stand so long...hais...missing someone, but cant see...sians....wan to study, also cannot go in, like holiday for me...50% ii scare gone...hais...

ii wanted to have
1. shopping spree - clothings - dresses
2. quit sch, srsly, dun feel like studying, hais...
3. get a car w car licence
4. same as number 2...

SIANS LUHHS!!! headache, sore throat...ii am super duper fat... :( but ii am lazy...hais... think this is super emo post...

o9o81o

2010-08-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

today was National Day, 45 yrs old singapore...but it just felt like a normal day to me...ii think ii alrdy go in to a holiday mood...sians sia...early in the morning, 9am ii think, kana scared by my bro, he called me mei, than ii kana shocked...lols!!! stupid...cos ii am half awake only...than ate nasi lemak, srgn derhs...rice a bit bland, nt much coconut taste, than my two bro persuaded me to go play badminton with grace, jacquen & qing shun...initailly, ii was reluctant to go, but end up ii went...than we played badminton from 10 plus to 12 plus, it was fun...hahas...but very tiring, cos of the wind...kept making us use 110% of the force instead of 100%...arghh...than ii went hm earlier to prepare to go out and meet dear to study...

at first, went to starbucks, than damn stupid...ii think around 3plus, it was like peak hr, a lot of ppl come in, than the supervisor/manager asked 2 customers who had finished their drink and was studying to leave and let out space for other customers...stupid lorhs...wapiang...dear said"no logic, ppl can lepak BUT not study, what is the diff?" ii agreed...quite stupid...than we also guai guai, sutomatic keep our book just in case they chase us out...lols!!! than we took lrt to his hse, study there...sians sia...study till slp...no mood to study lorhs...so sad...ii scaare fail...but ii still never study...funny lorhs...

than met him till around 5plus...than off to meet hweeyee...than we went to novena there to wait for janice...lols!!! she so funny luhhs!!! her working attire...lols...ntg to say...and her hair...hahs...while waiting for her to end work, we went to coffee bean, bought one drink, stupid...it was hot derhs =.= ii didnt even knw...ii still go and put straw in...wapiang...noob lorhs...than she came...we went to find food, dun have food that is suitable for me...so we went to buy sides to eat..hweeyee ate the rice balls, janice choc w banana waffles and me blueberry waffle which is super sweet, v disgusting..and thats our dinner...

novena de shopping centre nt nice derhs, sucks sia...ntg inside...but quite a lot of clothings, we also never really go shop for clothes...than they keep smoking...we went to sheesha there, smoke "shui yan" which wun hurt our organs or whatever thing, its v isolated but crowded...janice gave attitude to that guy, damn hilarious...lols!!! we ordered strawberry mint...nt v nice...than talked about problems...sians...than hy probs, janice work stuffs and ntg much bout me...ii guess ii dun really have...lols!!!

chio bu lehs!!!

hy like cao ah lian!!!

ii knw uu also wan to tou pai me...

ah lian

than around 10.08pm, mummy called me, she said, ppl who are born in the yr of horse must reach hse by 11pm today...than we still talking the problems and smoking the sheesha...ii damn tempted to smoke sia :( but ii cant...ii control...it seems fun, but ii really cant :( than ii told dear, he said, if ii smoke, he will also smoke, so end up ii say, ok, no smoking... than we leave at around 10.39pm, after paying for the thing, around $16.50 plus 3 plain water...they cheat our money sia...kanasai...than we went to take cab, chiong home cos must be by 11pm...so, no choice...

ii rushed up hm before 11pm...than when ii reach hm, ii shouted to my parents...2259..nt 11 yet....lols!!! they replied lucky uu, 1 more min...hahas...their reaction so funny...than ii read the news about what they say, and ii went to bath, use com, and gonna slp soon...tml have to work mid shift...sians :( 1130 to 2100...boring...CP some more...hais...slping tym...and missing him again...

sheesha

mei nu

o6o81o - o8o81o

2010-08-09T01:45:00.002+08:00

fri was the last day of this 1st semester...than have a 3 weeks study break inclusive the yog break...sians lorhs...ii alrdy holiday mode lerhs...bored, dun even have the feel to study...so ii just pon the lms lesson on fri, as the teacher said that it wun affect the attendance and the participation marks...so ii heck care...just pontan...

ii woke up at 9plus ii think, than went to hougang point for breakfast and shop at ntuc for a while...breakfast cost $12+, bought a dress which ii think was nice at $12 and ntuc shopping cost $50+...lucky ii only pay $24+...lols!!! hehes...than after that, my dad came, than somethings happen...and we went home...than ii watch youtube & fb videos at hm for the whole day and met dear at night...hehes...initially we wanted to go to changi, but end up went to his hse watch show...the thailand horror show...hahas...

sat went to work...than all the aunties so cute, and the other promoters luhhs...but ii still hate blangla & phillipines....they no brains luhhs!!! wapiang...took 2 company calendar home...boss v weird, he dun wan to put pics of his products but put those motivation wordings on it...lol!! only 3 logo at the end...so weird luhhs...waste money to create awareness of motivation...than after that go home for baibai...hahas...than gt refreshments...think ii eat too much, after everyone go home, ii keep talking non-stop and fast sia...like super energetic...lols!!!

sun woke up at 9 plus again...daddy send me & mummy to didi sch there, than pei mummy go see doctor...exp lehs...$19 for consultation and a anti itch cream...but my mum say it was effective...so ok luhhs...than went to ave 8 there, but some stuffs (all food) omfg!!! ii am damn fat luhhs...keep eating...hahas...than went home...watch tv, eat, help mummy dye hair and wait for dear's reply & meet him...his dad come and send me to his hse, so good luhhs!!! than his mum so cute...wapiang...the ji gou li...hehes...ii like... :D initially wanted to study, end up waatching the noose & the chnl 8 9pm derhs show...so no study again...

than around 7 plus went to rivervale mall eat dinner, claypot noodle & hor fun...not too bad, ii only picked out the stem and ate the leaf...it was nice...than went to daiso shopped around...$6...met hweeyee to go to the temple there to watch fireworks...hahas...nicenice...& bought cup walker - strawberry snowshake was nice, mango red milk tea normal, caramel choc is special, at first see is attractive, like superb taste, but after drinking, it was not so...lols!!! than bought kinder breuno...

walk to the temple there at 9 25 ii think...need to countdown to 12 for ndp, we walked away to playground and slack...than eat muah chee...drink our bubble tea and talk...a lot of children was playing there after we reach, playing with the "yan huo" and children at the playground...than we just rang a bit of space for them to pass...than hweeyee scare a kid...omg... the boy just keep running away...gt so scary marhs ?! ii think got...lols!!! than after that go back to the temple ther see the fireworks at 1140....than 3 mins plus...ii kanna shocked sia...no signal derhs...die...ii so humji... :( when walking to bus stop...we ate kinder breuno...nearly fall down, all thanks to dear for helping me...hehes...thanks uu.. :D muacks...

than they send me to bus stop, waited for bus, than go home...when ii at the north vista there, gt one guy fart...nb lorhs... damn it...than ii think he alight at the same stop as me...wapiang...suay...and its damn smelly...hweeyee pei me chat home, and ii report every single thing and place that ii reached...super funny...and a bit of cough cough...kanasai...nt enough water... :( slping tym...muahahahas....

ii enjoyed this few days & it seems to be holidays to me...so pro...and ii am having final exams of 50% for 4 modules on 2,3,4,8 sept :( hate it...

Sweet moments with ahde dear dear

2010-08-06T14:32:00.003+08:00

from the first day ii met uu, me and hweeyee alrdy feel that uu are cute, and its impossible that we will be together due to some factors, like size, compatiblity etc... lols!!! as times goes by, as uu treat me better and better, ii bagan to like uu...than leads to love... thanks for ur care & concern while ii am sick...dr chua...hehes...ur medicine & even pei me go see the doctor...

hahas, we met at peninsula plaza that day, than sms, than watch movie another day, than continuing sms-ing till 1st of may, which is the labour day, our first day that uu asked me to be ur gf and let uu take care forever...hahas...sweet seh...than after that, we met almost everyday after uu book out...it was like so nice and sweet of uu to invest ur time with friends and pei me instead of them...sometimes uu would just pei me study, though ii might be distracted...but ii like companionship more than being alone...hehes :$

although sometimes we did quarrel, but happiness are more than our blabbering...we have went to so many places, and not forgetting uu coming to my school to send me home...hehes...

Peninsula Plaza
Amk Hub for movie
Sentosa - underwater world, relaxing at the beach
East Coast Park - relaxing under the moon
Jurong East Swimming Pool together w hy
Pulau Ubin
Orchard
City Hall areas

ii think still gt a lot more...but ii cant rmb & type so much...sry

running :D

ECP

Underwater world

Sentosa

otw to JE

after being roasted!!!

Pulau Ubin

muacks...love uuu...we can last forever derhs...muacks...

frm Mar all the way to Aug

2010-08-06T00:56:00.001+08:00

A super duper tiring 5 mths for me

frm 9 mar, after the final exams, ii just went on to work at budget terminal for roughly half a mth, lols!!! short isn't it? but APRIL FOOL was the day that ii am going to get my ITE final results plus GPA plus the poly enrolment thingy...BUT ii have to work, so hweeyee darling help me check my results as the results will be out at 2pm...ii still can rmb the moment she called, she asked me, uu wan good / bad news? than of cos ii say the bad news, and she replied "uu have to study for 3 more years before uu can come out to work and contribute to the society" ii am so happy, srsly...ii love her...than the good news is, "uu gt in to NP BS course" ii am srsly damn happy, nearly cried out sia...super happy, the feeling was nt be able describe...

after that, ii look forward to getting in to this course, it was my long long long hope & dream to get in to NP...finally ii got in to NP, enrolment sucks, 8 Apr collect enrolment package, than make payment by 9 Apr, everything is so rushed...than ii am able to start school on 19 Apr...it was super awkward...ii was so stressed, the first tym ii walked in to NP alone to lecture and classes, w/o knowing anyone or the places, it really sucks...ii just followed the direction plates to the class and lecture theatre...stupid luhhs...

when sch starts, 1st week dun have tutorial, than my 1st lesson was tutorial, me, wendy & jessie went to sch together...we are late for lesson due to traffic jam, but than at least they met their classmates, ii didn't manage to...sad sia...than lecture was at 11am, ii emo to the venue where it was supposed to be held, POA lecture...it seems so strange to me...ii am damn retard, ii see ppl queuing up in groups chatting amongst themself...than ii am the emo one, waiting for ahde's replies as he promised to pei me on my 1st day...hees, still quite happy that he is so sweet to do that... :D

me & jessie KANG

me & wendy CHUA

ii am supposed to scan student cards =.=
ii dun even know what does that look like, no orientation, no friends, no sense of security... :( than ii just walked in the LT slowly...seeing so many chairs like the cinema theatre like that...dun knw what ii shall do...just at this moment, someone so sweet and friendly touched me and asked, are uu in this lecture too...ii just nodded yes, but ii dun have the student card...so she say nevermind, we sit down first.. hahas...sweet right, this person is my best darling in NP, who is HUILIN...me love uu...hehes...after that, ii always sat with her for almost all my lecture in this semester...she helped me for most of my things in NP...and great friends that she introduce...omg...super friendly and sweet girl...sat there and dropped my lappy the first tym...suay sia... :( all because of that stupid "Table"...

than the 2nd week started, tutorial also starts...getting to know all my TB28 peeps...they are such a fun loving people except for some inconsiderate ppl...so nvm...projects, presentations and chatterss...its so fun nice and happy... just that the pace here is super duper fast :( cant really catch up...

stressful life, ii keep wanting to give up on sch...but ii cant... :( thanks ahde dear dear for supporting me by my side...pics in fb...muacks... :D ilu...

Common test sucks, all results just average...exams coming soon after this 3 weeks...stressed up more...sadded... :( hw????????????????????????????????????????? ii scare ii cant make it :(

and today is the last day of sch with my TB28 peeps...ii will miss them a lot especially zhilin, shuting, rachel & yushan...
giving them laughter & entertainment this few months is fun
giving shuting more loves & mushy things in front of them is super interesting, but ii think they enjoyed very much...
giving rachel goosebumps...ii love it...omg...she super cute...
giving yushan & zhilin laugh can liaos...anyway, the 2 of them are like couple nw...lols!!!

my sweet cliques (playing badminton was fun)

TB28 :D

ii will miss uu all(TB28 & huilin &peeps) and lets jys for our final 50% exams!!!!!!!! muacks...huggies

1st March- Beginning of the mth

2010-03-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

morning 8 went to sch, hoping to present my frontpage project in the morning so that ii do not have to go for the afternoon lesson...then that bitchy in class present for almost 40 mins when each person's schedule is 15mins...then we were so pekchek, hw can a person be so selfish to overshot her schedule...its over over over time ok...idiot her...then we stick to our schedule in the afternoon...1 hr break complaining about that bitch sia & revising PR...

after which was PR lesson, having a PR mock test, Mrs loh is funny sia...she came in to class & say - here mock test, there open book test...LOLS!!! she last week say wan give mock test on 24.o2.1o...then ii say need rush project, so end up postpone till today...nt too bad...at least there were around 60% of the questions that ii attempted, ii knw the answers...so at least my mindmap did help me...do that mindmap till siao lorhs...

then after that 1 hr break again...still complaining & eating @ J8...LOLS!!! funny isnt it...kept complaining...then take bus back to sch...cos lappy heavy sia...me, fel & roy did bring our lappy to present for our frontpage...scary sia...needed to present my work to the teacher & class...so after everyone presented, my scheduled time was up, its my turn...so scary lorhs...a lot of them walk towards my table where ii present & see lorhs...then ii just present to the teacher as my lappy cant have dual display...sians diao...then ii just tell him why & what features ii use in this project...and its done...happy part is that he dun have questions to ask me questions like what he did to others..so ii was still quite happy...then he said "basically everything is in, so it is quite good..." its actually all the features that must be included in it...

After my presentation, just when me, fel & roy was about to be happy cos relax liaos..then fel ask wk about the lpd presentation tml...make us fed up...the leader didnt tell us anything frm the day that she lied last week, then today tell us need to present tml...wtf???!!! we didnt knw can a nt...dun knw who present, use what ppt all thaat...then wk say they 3 present (germ, emma, wk)...wtf???!!! again uu knw...knn...no need to discuss with us & leader say if we dun wan present, then they 3 present...fk lorhs...

she still say presenter doesnt have extra marks, when we ask the teacher, she told us there is...we nearly lose marks due to no presenting...then 3 of us were damn angry, we conclude since they say no marks given for presentor, then we present lorhs...vvv tulan luhhs...then she still give that innocent & blur look...knn...end up everyone presenting tml...cb luhhs...

ii really hate those ppl who dont have responsibility ok?! if uu wanna be a leader, pls make sure uu are qualified to do so...do it with responsibility luhhs...instead of being a coward!!!

then roy took circle line home with us, alight at hougang, then we walk home together, since he is just one stop away frm me...& he is doing warm up for the run later..at first ii was considering whether to go run with him a nt, end up, ii think ii am really very fat lerh...so meet him for the run...LOL!!! then ii run 3/4 of the park non stop...quite happy...my achievement...LOL!!! then he so poor thing...at first wan to train derhs..end up need to slow down & going at the same pace as me...so poor thing...run 1.5 rounds & walk 1.5 rounds...LOL!!!

went home, dinner, buy hamster food, then use com... :-( :-! :-)

Happie days comes after lots of hard times

2010-02-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

finally ii am so relaxed, yeah!!! today is the deadline of the submission of the frontpage project...after so many days of hardwork...ii have gt a sense of achievement of my webpage...so happy...then signed on the namelist to indicate that ii have hand in the project - cd, navigation page & table of contents...hehes...then suddenly ii felt that ii walk with air...LOLS!!! jk...

then go home, changed, & meet kk to study...LOLS!!! we arranged to meet @ 5.40pm @ bugis, then he reached earlier around 5.20pm & say ii late...when ii reached @ around 5.30pm...went to eat pasta mania then go to library to study my pr...ii want to write notes, then end up, drawing on the paper cos my purple pen ink no ink alrdy...& then ii have no mood to study...so this is the drawing below...funny sia...but its damn ugly...

then went home to update this...yoohoo...ii am nt that stress lerhs...just left with PR & HR need to memorise...& wait till 9 & 10 mar for exam...then ii graduate frm ITE lerhs...yeah!!! : D

31.12.o9 - o1o11o

2010-01-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

so long never update my blog liaos...so today is the 1st day of 2010, update it for a new start barhs...31st was my off day after 10 working days non-stop sia...omg...ii am so damn tired luhhs...then slept at around 1-2am on 30th, then woke up at 9 plus am in the morning, coos my mum ask me to wake up help her dye hair...than the funny thing was that, the dye has used finished & throw away except for the box...then my mum thought inside still have...make me laugh until dun knw hw to say sia...LOLS!!!

then ate breakfast, change my hamster bedding & clean it up, bath & walk to hougang to take train to chinatown...then we walk to the market there, help my aunt buy some junior clothes for my cousin...lols...then see see look look eat eat ( sugar candy- bing tang hu lu , durian ice-kachang , ice cream with fruits cocktail , hokkien mee , veg fish head vermicelli but is all shared ok , ii never eat so much...LOLS!!!)

then walk back to OG, bought something for my mum & myself & it cost around $140 , that was my first bill sia...so exp...ii heart-pain luhhs!!! :'-( then shop again, bought 1 p/case & 1 b/case & 1 ironing board cover...in total spend about $160...OMG!!! :( ii saw the handbag that ii like, then ii dun knw whether ii should get it a nt...hais...its quite exp sia... 1 is got brand & nice - $87.20 after discount & the other 1 is no brand & nice - $47.90 after discount...sadded...hw ii wish ii can get that...but ii really can't bear to part with my $$...T.T

& then take train to harbourfront & take back to hougang, meet KK @ mall there for dinner then to countdown @ rivervale there...after eating dinner ( Claypot noodle & sarsi), take bus to rivervale, then walk to the location where the event is held, then see see look look, then he suggest going to rivervale mall shop cos too early, somemore scare v bored...then went to Daiso shop for 1 hr, damn funny luhhs...such a small shop gt so many things to let me shop & see for so long luhhs...pro right...then to NTUC shop for chocolate & drinks...then walk back again...while waiting for my another friend JJ, we ate ice cream with bread, then he came at around 10 plus...suggested to walk back to rivervale mall derhs mac, then i played KK's psp - djmax...hahas...11 plus walk back to the location, its like so funny lorhs...ii walk for so long distance somemore so many times luhhs...

we were going to see the fireworks only luhhs...so actually quite worth it, lucky ii gt to see, unlike my unlucky friends went to vivo, end up waited in vain as there are no fireworks...hahas...then after fireworks is over, we watch a performance by Dam Thompson, he is so pro luhhs, can sing Michael Jackson, English, Chinese, Hokkien Songs lorhs...ii was like ( WOAH!!! ) LOLS!!! then went to a void-deck near rivervale to play UNO cards & went home @ 2am like that...

slept @ around 3.30am & then woke up @ 8.30am to work again...then gt 1 fking customer so damn fking rude, still say want complain me that ii am rude...F-OFF man!!! nb... work till 8 & left & met JJ, went for dinner @ fortune centre, then to a void-deck play uno cards (stress, uno & he do some stupid magic which didn't manage to work out!!!) lols!!! then we went to Rochor there for beancurd, ii didn't knw that it was so popular that it is so crowded luhhs...ppl were queuing to buy the beancurd, then waiting & finding seats, seats were @ lvl 1 - roads & backlanes , lvl 2 - small enclosed area... so crowded...think they must have earn a lot... then headed home... so tired!!! time to go to slp liaos... nights...

131109

2009-11-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

today got pe lesson @ 8-9am....then ii waited for felicia @ srgn & saw weekiat...then reach sch around 8.25am...lols...late...but nbm...lols...then run 3 rounds round the hall & played captain's ball...ii dun really like to play captain's ball sia...dun feel like getting involved in it...so boring sia...but ii tried to played, actually it was quite fun though...but still ii dun quite like...

then after sch, went to watch movie with felicia & weekiat ---> watch the Paranormal Activity...we decided since wed, thought of going on thurs because of the long break...then weekiat cant, so we move it to fri...during break time, that roy say until it was so nice & scary sia...what 1st part-boring, 2nd part-scary, 3rd part-very scary & gave a rating of 7/10...

end up my rating was only 0.5/10...but ii knw it was based on a true real life story, so it was quite scary for them lerhs...but ii can say, ii nearly fall aslp when ii was watching...diao...

1111o9-1211o9

2009-11-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

daily routine of schooling, then wed nyte struggling with project, last min chiong sia...find research, then ytd find videos, then discussion with our members in msn...kept dc, make me so frustrated sia...somemore impt discussion...

then thursday we were needed to go to simei ite for a career fair, saw a lot of job scope & then knw more about them...then applied for a sentosa admission host part time job...gt to go for a group interview...scary sia...somemore she asked me questions first out of so many ppl...

then ask bout my job history, what ii did...then how ii deal with different types of customer...then go on to another person...after that, she say that she will hand it to the management & see if ii will be hired, & inform me by 15/11/09...ii wanted to have different job experience, so really hope to get in...

around 1 plus left simei ite, dun knw where to go before our HR briefing @ 4pm...so long hours of break...we decided to walk to Sg EXPO to shop @ Robinsons expo fair...lol...thinking of going to look for my colleague, but they were nt there, then saw ah KEN over there...then chat a while & went off...biught my concealer & some tidbits = $13.20 in total...lols...

reach Little India @ 3.50pm, walk to The Verge for the briefing...then a lot of latecomers, so meeting start @ around 4.20pm...the ED of the company speaks & then ask those leader's to speak out their grp names all that...then ii was like so WTF luhhs...speak in the middle of the room, then all the attention was on me...then ii was damn nervous, he asked me my grp name, then ii was too nervous to pronounce clearly...v funny luhhs...a lot of ppl laugh sia...so embarrassed...then ask me how our grp gets together as a team, ii said fate, all laugh again...

omgoodness...ii was so paisei this time...bth liaos...then sat dwn & proceed to another grp for their turn to intro themself...then end at 5.40pm...rush to meet mumy @ Chinatown, she need to change & buy clothing for my younger brother...so shop @ OG buy shoes, @ market buy clothings, @ street eat dinner...

we went hm & bath, then go to find videos for project...then dc!!!then ii went to slp after countless tries & just when ii doze off, around 0050, sun called me & ii woke up & chat a while to around 0145, ii end up can't slp, think around 0230 then slept...all because of UU!!! lols...

1o11o9

2009-11-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

in the morning, at around 12+am, there is a cockcroach in my room crawling right over my toe, omg, when ii saw it, ii was like so wtf, why are uu here, scare me damn lots sia, heart thumping like 100+...the cockcroach is like so big, damn scary can a not, then ii went out, saaw my daddy in kitchen, asked him to help me catch cockcroach, then he was so slow, by the time he came in, the cockcroach went hiding, sad...ii was living in fear...omg, kept seeing where it is...

then ii went to toilet & come back, ii saw it again, ii panic & was frantic, then ii quickly run to the kitchen to get a plastic bag & catch the cockcroach myself...think my heart beat was 200+ barhs...LOLS!!! then researching on a virus thingy...scare me till death, then can't slp well...hais...

morning around 7+am, ii was so fickle-minded, whether ii should go to see doc bout the thing or went to sch, no time to tell mummy, so went to SK polyclinic to see doc...frm 7.53am to 10.11am then end...then doc referred me to hospital for treatment, hais...so scary, she doesn't even ask me whether ii am ok, maybe is polyclinic dun have that type of medicine, so need to go to hospital...

then went to the referral room, she asked me about the appt thing, then they fax over it & called me to tell me when & where ii should go for appointment, it was on 30 Nov, 9.40am...sians diao...my mummy burthday lehs...sadded!!!

then thinking of going to sch for lesson, but the most impt lesson that ii wanna go was AOA around 3pm start, then ii end at 10.11am, then go sch for PR lesson like very funny, so never go as ii reach will be around 11pm...then lesson would end in around 30mins...so weird...then decide not to go since ii have got bad news...hais...

met mummy to eat, actually dun felt like eating, but she forced me to eat...sad...no choice but to eat lorhs...told mummy the bad news, then she say ii never tell her before ii go see doc, then she is ok with it lerhs...then went to market, hougang mall & then go home...

used com for a while, then felt slpy, so have a afternoon nap around 3+, 4pm till 7pm woke up, tonight can't slp lerhs...good luck to me liaos...

o911o9

2009-11-09T22:30:00.000+08:00

today is the 1st day of my new life w/o him, though its a little bit blank, but then still can make it for my day...8am reach sch, then start lesson, AOA teach mail merging...then told us that there will be a test ltr on at the 2nd lesson...then during 1st break time for 1 hr, there is a lot of laughter & topics together with our whole cliques...then studied for PR mock test...alamak, talk more then study lehs...then no tym lerhs, lesson start at 10am, walk up to class, then studied a while, then teacher come in waiting for us to assemble our tables nicely before she can give us the paper to do the test...then do do do, a few question dun knw hw to do, sians...but nbm, at least ii knw where ii am wrong, so that ii can revise again when the real CA come...after that during 2nd AOA lesson, test again lorhs...so do alrdy, the paper damn messy sia...buai tahan lehs...

then finish sch, on the way hm, hweeyee called me, then ask me wan go out a not? ii said uu come my hse here lorhs...then ask me wanna go swim, ii said dun wan, too fat to wear that swim wear costume lehs...then ask me wanna go gym, finally ii think through, can exercise, not too bad, agreed to go...then on my way back home, walking halfway, then it started to rain from drizzle to heavy rain...lols...ii witness everything...LOLS...

then went to meet hweeyee, she called me & we chat, ii keep bluffing my bus come when it haven...lols...is like so funny sia...keep bluffing her that my bus come alrdy when it haven...such as bus come lerhs (what bus) 82 (not to compass point there) wahahas...vvv funny...then said 119 come alrdy (is it far / long) ii said ok luhhs (take lorhs) but it is opposite...LOLS...vvv funny...then ltr ii kanna bluff by her liaos...she reach compass point alrdy, then told me that she forgot to bring her shoes cos she wear slippers, the ii was like so WTF, uu come out to go gym, & uu told me uu forget to bring shoes, ridiculous isn't it, end up she got bring & put in the small bag...LOLs...

we went to gym, hweeyee dun have the patience to go & do those machine workouts lorhs, then she keep jumping the machine...then ii continue to do my run for 20mins, but when ii hit 8 mins, ii accidentally pull the stop thingy, then it started all over again, omg, ji tao sian diao...then started again, run & walk for 13.5mins...buai tahan lerhs...so stop & change to riding bicycle (so called)...20 mins again...the other one was to pull, think can stretch my hand...hahas...so that ii can pass my sit & reach...but we didn't do any warm-up...so be prepared to get whole muscle ache tml...omg...

so overall today ii had enjoyed myself...wahahas...thanks hweeyee!!! :)

o811o9

2009-11-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

today when ii went to work, ii was still thinking bout those things about whether to give uu a chance again...end up ii tried and tried again, but ii cant do it, ii am sorry... :( ... then went working, no customer, ii was so bored sia...bored till death due to it is crowd-less...BORING!!!

then during working time, ntg to do, lucky john was working today, we talked alot, but he is damn fickle-minded sia...ii gonna buai ta han him lerhs...then scold him...LOLS!!!then he told me his stuffs & my stuffs...nbm,the content is not impt...

after work, on the way home, ii was so sad, hais, my mind is all about the things we have done together, seeing things together, happy & sad things together, end up, quieting myself continuously till home...chat with hweeyee a while, then he ask me to go down to find him and chat, at first ii think it was ridiculous to do this, but lucky ii go down, if not me and him, will not become kor & mei again...

he waited for 4 hrs for me to end work, end up just to pass me a book of photos & memories which he created for us, our happy memories only, but ii asked him, where is our sad memories then...hais...then he took cab just to come to find me & we met for the last time & said a lot of stuffs...our unhappyness & stuffs that we don't like each other to do...we decided that we will bee kor & mei lerhs...so we broke up & he said that he will be waiting for my return...

hees...thank you for treating me so good & loving me, but we have to stop for a while to prepare our stuffs...

omfg, tml have got a mock test frm chpt 1-3...sian diao...this few days so sad, dun even have the heart to do anything else...but now everything settled lerhs...

Daily routine!!!

2009-11-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

today worked again...from now on, ii will try to spend my time to work, so that ii will nt have to be so budgetted!!! a new life start again...ii have think through alrdy....this economic crisis makes me so bloke...ii think ii have to be more hardworking lerhs...need to balanced up my work life, r/s life & sch life...so far its all nt good...

today started worked from 10.30am to 6.30pm...woah seh...quite busy from 10.45am, stock came and needed to put price tags, keep stock in storeroom, and a cookware nearly dropped on my head...nearly died in the storeroom...LOLS...then it was quite crowded, served a lot of customers, and sold quite a lot...went for a late lunch with him cos partially is because he is sick, wanting to see him & at the same time trying to get back the feeling with him, but ii can only sense that it no longer lingers...went from raffles city to kallang for a lunch with him, then rush back to work again, but late for 10 minutes, nbm, is either auntie never find out, or is she get used to it alrdy...lols...then after that, crowd has lessen lerhs...so slacking at the condola there...so bored...6.30pm off work...& went home!!!

ii dun knw what ii can do, whenever ii think of that incident again, ii would be so sad...hais...anyway, don't talk about that will be better ii think...talk talk talk, add on more saddness only...

Saddness beyond my heart

2009-11-07T21:58:00.001+08:00

hais, today will be the 7th day of our pause of r/s...ii kept think, asking, questioning myself & even doubting myself if ii had ever loved uu before?? but ii double check & reconfirmed this doubts a lot of times alrdy, do uu know how much times ii have cried for uu, getting angry & frustrated because of uu...whenever ii think of our happy times, ii really dun knw hw come our r/s came to this stage, its not that ii wanna say stop this r/s & it means really stop, do uu really think that ii am so harsh towards uu?? ii also dun wan to do it too...but there is a lot of times ii can't help it...so ii think ii do love uu...right...

ii am those person that attitudes changed very fast...when ii am serious, why do uu even want to say those lame things to make me shoot uu back... when ii am tired, why do uu have to keep bombarding me with loads of question when ii dun even wanna answer...when ii am sad, uu only know how to say sorry that uu are not by my side to walk through this journey together at that particular time...when ii am angry, uu can add oil to the fire & make me feel more & more angry... do uu think uu are acting funny or cute in front of me...uu dun knw when is the right time to do which actions...this is where ii really dun like...

do uu even understand me at all?? maybe our character & personality is different... ii still wondered why am ii such a failure as a gf...but the more ii think, again & again, ii dun think that ii am a failure...when ii step in to a r/s, ii will go all into it, unless my parents dun approve, if not ii will make sure that ii will make a good gf with uu...but they are ok with uu...uu are the one who can't even give a trust to ur gf...is that what a healthy r/s is called?no right...

uu kept secretly checking on my hp, when ii am bathing, uu checked...when ii am busy doing some housework, uu checked...when we are in chalet, uu checked again...caught uu red-handed & uu still tell me uu didn't... when ii asked uu seriously, caused uu can't be able to lie but to say the truth, uu said: just wanna see who ii contact with... uu go & touch ur heart & think clearly & carefully, from the day ii stead with uu, did ii ever doubt uu before? did ii ever checked on ur hp before??? did uu ever done anything that hurt our r/s before??? and uu even thought that ii time uu just because ur ex does this to uu??? and questioned me on the way ii went to work...since uu start to doubt me, why did uu even have to carry on our r/s???

ii only can say, ii am very disappointed in uu... do uu know how hurt & upset am ii when ii am typing all this out...ii contributed whole-heartedly in this r/s & what did ii get in the end? its a piece of shyt isn't it!!!

did uu ever put urself in my shoes to see what ii have done for uu...it is not about those financial matters, its about the thought that counts...ii sacrificed my work days for uu, from 2 weekends per week, becomes to 1 weekend per week...like that see is like ntg, but ii have lost almost $200/mth, somemore uu should know my financial problems...ii need to pay my expenses all by myself...ii saved & tried to buy things for uu...but eventually, uu spend all ur money helping me pay bills,presents, foods during the start of the month & when it is the end of the month, ii will be paying everything, even lending money to __... uu said uu wanna help me share all these & walk through all this together, but ii felt that uu didn't...

ii asked uu to save money not to come from ur hse to fetch me to work & go back hm...but uu didn't listen & said, we don't have a lot of time every week...so uu must send me to work, but when uu come & go home is almost $2 or even more...than my break time uu come again, around another $2 is gone again, then at night, to our destination and go back home, around another $2 gone again...1 day $6+...8 days $48+...somehow ii really dun knw why, ii told uu to save money, but uu wouldn't listen, we are so bloke & yet uu still can't think...hais...

whenever we go out on sat, ur dad will be so unhappy, why ur gf so impt than him a 19+yrs daddy lerhs lehs...ii knw he is sad, thats why that tym he said it at ur hse...ii can sense his angryness & disappointment...cos my dad is unhappy too before when ii was with another person...whenever on sun, ii accompany uu back to cck when ii am staying ad hougang...the tiredness & the distance to cck & back to hougang is like so far away...somemore, ii have worked for the whole day & its very tiring, do uu know...hais...

nvm barhs...ii can only know that ii have alrdy contributed my best in this r/s giving uu all the trust that should be given, w/o doubting & questioning..so thats all ii have to say for our r/s...hais...ii really don't know what ii should do...

reveal results date

2009-10-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

results out on 1 oct - 4gpa
today, 13 oct - teacher gave me a notebook & choc...hahas, got 4 gpa, 2 pax in class got 4...lucky got bring up my gpa...
sian diao, this term got 4 modules...boring...slping in class...

ChaLet on o91oo9-111oo9

2009-10-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

Time that ii am at chalet- (SHY)

Seminar on o21oo9

2009-10-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

That day went to seminar & heard Gary Lee's talk...he is so humorous sia...then went home try out that green eyeliner, like normal only right!!!!grrr...

o11oo9 - o21oo9

2009-10-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

1 year anniversary!!! on children's day!!!

o21oo9 making fruit tarts at hm!!! playing around!!!

F1 time - 25 - 27 sept

2009-10-13T22:02:00.001+08:00

F1 pictures are uploaded, even though it is really very tiring, but then ii am kanna sunburnt....LOLS!!!then the staffs there are very funny too, working so long, laugh for almost 1/4 of the day...hahas

1st day 12-11+++pm...nearly midnight, when ii reach hougang, it is nearly 1o'clock, then ii scare no bus hm, went to see the last bus timing & send msg to double check the time, it was 1.21am from harbourfront, so still lucky, then sent msg to 74744 for the bus arriving timing...

2nd day 1-11+++pm...same procedure again

3rd day 1- 12+++pm cos it was the last day, then we took pictures

16o9o9

2009-09-16T22:01:00.000+08:00

today my didi birthday!!!lols...but celebrated ytd...hahas...sang birthday song...then end lerhs...so ytd & today went to work lorhs...ntg lerhs...everyday same routine...

just that today, ii finally watched tv...lols...so long never liaos...weird luhhs...then watch tang xin feng bao, cried cos his parents died in accident, same thing happen again...so sad...cry with them...lols...

14o9o9

2009-09-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

hmmm...slept more earlier alrdy...ytd 12.30am+ slept...hahas...wake up @ 8.30am...hahas...then prepare & went to work...lols...nearly late...dreamt of that gurl whom ii had a misunderstanding with...lols...suddenly...maybe it might be the time that ii might be able to patch back with her...thats yy will dream of her...is it???so weird...hmmm...maybe ii really can...hahas...

then went to work lerhs...ok...luck is still not too bad...on a mon, got a rich cust. buy from me a $219 mattress protector...lols...so happy...then 20% become $175+...very good...then my competitor very "xiao xin yan"...he keep nag nag nag...lols...sales was nt that bad though...then got 2 refund & exchange for a new one...hahas...at least no "-" for the day, it was still a "+"...hahas...

then went to find kian ann for something...so dear knw luhhs...nw com like becoming so sian for me...ii am so bloke...ii need cash...sad...

4 tiring days

2009-09-13T23:08:00.003+08:00

13o9o9

today done the same things as ytd...but just that today never meet kian ann for things needed to do for today...so sians...thought of last min meeting friends, but really tired...leg too pain...sians...reach hm & play com...lols...but 1 thing that makes me real happy is that ii sold a hungarian quilt today, somemore is a queen size derhs...yeah...nearly a yr never sell that lerhs...hahas...that customer so good...hahas...thanks...

12o9o9

went to work from 10.30 to 7.30pm...sians sia...ii wanna do something else luhhs...then after that...walk to clark quay from raffles city & reached about 8pm...sians diao...sweating...then met kian ann & started our market listing all that...so tired...finished off at around 10.30pm...dear wait for me & he was thoughtful, afraid that ii was hungry, he bought me bread to eat, as ii only ate lunch...hahas...thanks dear...then we see ppl sit on the bungy jump & then went home...tired sia...better still, at least ii slept at 1.30pm....hahas...

11o9o9

wth...ii send all my contacts this smsin the afternoon
>Last nite i wantd u.needed u so badly dat it hurt.wantd 2 taste u.i wantd u in me so u could work ur magic on me...but i couldnt find u.u stupid.. PARACETAMOL!

something like this with a little editing done...then kanna suan by a fker ex bf glenn yang jin rong...actually dun knw wtf he thinking can a not...walan ehs...all my friends was sending me lols, hahas, etc...than this fker suan me like hell...linking it to her gf, figure, looks, brain...but he said uu are hopeless cant even make it to sec 4 express...so is referring to so many ite students can a not...u this nabei...MI is what uu are studying as but what for???show of hw clever uu are so what...no respect, manners...oh ya...mother never teach uu...forgot...got mother like no mother like that...still so unfillial...kns...dun even deserve to be in this world...nbm...retribution will befalls on uu...take care uu bastard!!!

as ii am on my way to meet hweeyee for the COMEX thingy...so many ppl sia...then met her ad pasir ris, from punggol...too early lerhs...then reach there & wait for her while quarrelling with that bastard...damn hum ji, dun even dare to answer my call still say ii illiterate...knn...then dear & hweeyee take turns to help me scold that bastard...so tulan sia...then we walk around, buy things & go hm lerhs...so angry, slept at 2.30am...

1oo9o9

today slp for 7hrs..sians...think ii am having insomia this few days...maybe ii am being too stressed or what...hmmm...my mind has been thinking for a lot of things sia...but nbm...went to eat breakfast @ 435...then went to the snip avenue to colour hair...lols...plus treatment,

so today is my best friend derhs burthdae lerhs...weekiat...so went to his hse celebrate with his sec sch friends...hahas....best part is that his face kana the cake during celebration...lols...then it was very enjoyable luhhs...dun knw wil have this chance again next yr a nt...

11o9o9

2009-09-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

thE tEst oF fRiEndsHip dOseN't cOmeS wHen u R 2GethEr. It cOmEs wHeN u ParT waYs & u ReaLizE tHat dEsPitE tHe dIsTanCe, thE fRiEndshIp iS sTilL tHeRe...

Never abandon old friends. They are hard 2 replace. Friendships is like wine: it gets BETTER as it grows OLDER. Just like us... i get BETTER, u get OLDER.

today is the day whereby tiring again...ii really kana insomnia...wth...slept @ 4 in the morning...

o9o9o9

2009-09-10T10:20:00.000+08:00

such a nice number for me...oh yeah...such a tiring day sia...slept at 1.30am cao cannot take it lerhs, study till wan slp liaos lorhs...then woke up at 5.30am...in a total, there is a 4 hours sleep lerhs...think ii can be night owl liaos...but before that...ii will become a zombie first, got dark eyes ring then face white white...anyway, ii am vvv unhealthy lorhs...5.30am study after washing up, omg, its really very tiring, but because of am adm, ii have to do...

hais...then reach sch, haven even study the last 2 chpt, but that last 2 only came out few question, then the one that ii studied, ii dun even knw can a not...really is ji tao sian diao...ii think ii really dun have the heart to go & study...dun knw hw to do so also...hais...so maybe is a confirm that ii got a bad grade this tym which will be pulling down my grade...sians...my gpa arhs!!!hw???

then went hm & reached about 11am...then ate a nasi lemak & went to slp for 2 hrs & woke up ad 2pm...so went to prepare for a interview...& it ends at almost 10.45pm, then went hm...play, chat & slp...hmmm...ii kept thinking how should ii be doing it lorhs...hais...

o8o9o9

2009-09-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

o8o9o9
it was 3am in the morning, someone slowly opened the door of my room, omg, then outside was so dark, and ii saw a shadow of a woman, it was my mum...LOLS...she said, still dun wan slp, study / watching show on my lappy, tml need go market, slp early, so waste electricity...lols...so ii tried to go and slp from 3.30...slept ad 3.50am & woke up ad 8.30...lols...ii am so pro...

so wash up & changed & eat roti-prata & went to the market...then see see look look...buy here buy there...then went to a hair salon, cos didi want to cut hair...so we sit there while he cuts his hair...then after that, ii asked him :yy do uu like ur hair? he said: cos very handsome...LOLS...ii told my mum, yy he so buai hia bai derhs ( wun be embarrassed) hahas,,,then we all laugh...after that, while waiting for bus to go home, ii said handsome boy, then my didi turn around & smile...wahahas...ii laugh at him again...say he wun paisei huhhs...ii not calling him lorhs...LOLS...

reach hm roughly 11am...then started to study again...boring...how ii hope that tml can pass by faster...yoohoo...then started to use com till nw...time is 11.21pm...LOLS...12+hrs lerhs...dun even have the mood to study for my adm exams tml...so end up playing FB all the whilee, wasting time, chatting...then till nw...ii just finished writing all the notes only...wth...12hrs+ study 3 chpt...so gonna do some burning of night oil tonyte...to manage to study finish & understand it...sians...nw ii only can manage to study at night...siao liao...my dark circles is very very deep lerhs...

ad 6.45pm...hweeyee came to my hse saying wanting to discuss about the chalet's thingy...end up we were talking a lot of things...lols...then we talk, play & upload photos...so funny...hahas...then left ad roughly 9pm...then pei her to the bus stop to wait for bus...hahas...then went back hm...so ii thought of a FRIEND of the past...who is erm...better not say it out...hais...think ii still cared about her...out friendship started being quite good from sec 3 which is 15yrs old & end at 18yrs old cos of 1 misunderstanding...think ii too gullible, everytime kana cheated by someone...so ii believed that someone & lose trust in my past FRIEND & even confronted her...hais...everytime ii went to see her blog...its like the guy doesn't love him anymore...what for still continue the r/s together & hurt herself deeply...but ii can only tell myself...ii can't tell her this right now...ii am just a nobody to her...thats all what ii think...hais...ii dun even have the rights to talk to her!!!

that time ii did a quiz from dun knw where, says ii will be patching up with my that friend...is it real?shld ii try it...actually ii have got no idea...ii am scare to go & talk to her again...thinks both of us hurts each other a lot...so what if ii talk to her again...will the hurt goes away???nw that ii didn't manage to cherish the time spent with her, ii can only make myself rmb in my memories - the times that we spent together doing good & bad things, having fun together, shopping, going suntan-ning @ sentosa, studying together...she even helped me to straighten my hair that tym...using her bare hands...why am ii so stupid not to cherish her & believe a guy who is my ex...wtf...ii think ii am not fit to have such a good friend...thats why ii am always not sociable...hais...

if only time can change back...ii will never ever say things that hurts her...ii am sry...(not able to name her out)

so now ii can only continue my life, or shld ii patch up with her again?if she had read my blog, then ii will not be so miserable right now...anyway...ii miss uu & has always been checking on uu...but of cos ii am not a stalker, just wanna knw hw have uu been...but it seems not very good...hais...

ii am going back to study again...sians...hope tml's paper will be easy, at least let me get a B if not an A luhhs...

hais!!!

2009-09-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

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ytd slept ad 1.45am just to study for my evm exams today...but ntg seems to go in to my head...ji tao sians diao...so wake up ad 6.50am in the morning...so tired...5hrs of slp nia...then prepare & go sch...met felicia ad srgn station...and walk to sch...by the time we reach sch outside was roughly 8.25am ii think...then felicia said : so early...LOLS..exams starts at 8.30am...then we walked up to our classroom ad D3-o5...the teacher distribute the paper alrdy...then we was like so paisei...wahahas...nbm...we quickly take out our pencil case, ez link card & water bottle & hurried in to our seats...hahas..ii read the exams paper, the mcq's is a bit easy, but the structured essays is like ii only 50/50 nia...sians...then halfway through the exams, one of my classmate asked the teacher sbout the time, then the teacher was v humorous, he said : the time now is 9.22am BY NOKIA, 1 hr has gone...lols...then everyone laugh...then when ii passed up the paper, the teacher informed us of a HR briefing at auditorium 10am...

then at 10am, the briefing started, it was so boring, then they ask us to form a group of 4-6 people in a group, then our group done a chek ark things lorhs, which is to ask a gurl to leave the group as we think that she cant handle tasks efficiently & deadline not met & no priority given for task...then we went to the computer lab, B3-02...then germ ask me a very wtf question, she said: can i use ur name ' carolyn' to go & tell her? then ii was like so wtf, everybody decide on the decision, so why is my name & always me being the bad person sia? then end up we just stayed on to 11.30 then pass it to Mr Foong,lols...we used 1.5hrs to do that particular things as a group cos of her...anyway...ii dun wan her to misunderstand that ii am bias against her or what...but of cos ii am not a 2-faced person...and ii hate 2-faced person...idiotic！！！

then take train & walked hm..sians...thinking a lot of things, good & bad...then reach hm eat...then feeling very down...then play com till 3 plus...sians...then take a afternoon nap from 3+ to 7pm...LOLS...pigging...

then wake up & play com again...chat on phone with hweeyee, dear dear in a conference call...then talk to kian & ken...why is life so boring sia...:(

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2009-09-06T12:39:00.000+08:00

finally a saturday is here & ii will not be working, so song to stay at hm...but nevertheless, its still the same old thing happening if ii never go to work...mummy disturb me from my good slp & ask me to wake up go to hougang mall to buy things...so sians lorhs...so ii ate a nasi lemak & prepare to go...

so we went out around 11.15am..go shop & spent $20 in popular & $10 in NTUC...omg...things were so heavy sia...after that...we went to buy a tube dress for sukping...hahas...was so last minute...but dun really knw if she will like the dress a not...but nbm luhhs...ii asked to meet her at first but then she like will be quite late to come mall...so ii said to meet her on sunday, which is tml morning...

reached hm around 2...then started to coop myself in the room & study & play FB again...Lols...then me, dear & hweeyee continue be a bugger & a weeder in farm pals...lols...then level up a lot..played the whole day...roughly 6.45pm went out again...to fotang...lols...around 9 plus went to compass point to shop shop, then saw rouyue & zhen yu the two loving birds...shop till around 10 then go hm...play FB again...hahas..

sweet loving day

2009-09-05T13:24:00.001+08:00

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Today was the first day that ii would like to write all my things on my blog...
as per normal, all my fridays were the same, 8.30am wake up to prepare to go for school...manage to meet felicia at roughly 9.50am at serangoon circle line station...

ii reach school at roughly 10.05am...during EVM lesson, we had to do our group project presentation, then 4/5 persons were not late for school to present to whole class, lucky, today was actually the last lesson & it will be the holidays after o9o9o9 10.30am, why? - because it was after exams then we would have our holidays. Yoohoo...so happy...then lynn reached and we presented to ms nair and the class...but to our horror, our presentation should have been quite good, but due to some technical problem, dun knw why the projector cannot present out to the screen, then we need to just use the laptop screen..we was like wth...hw am ii going to present when almost 20+ students & 1 teacher are going to see our ppt slides...LOLs right...then ii suggested if we are able to change classroom, then she said it was hard to do so, cant find classroom, but nbm, ii will not minus marks for this...so hahas...lucky...then we just carry on with those slides, but when it was my turn to present, ii was trembling like dun knw what sia, then kept sweating & suddenly got a fever...LoLs...next up was to go through our mock exam paper...got aa v nice marks sia...guess what...it was 42/100...wth...but ii knw ii didnt study & just glance through...After that was my last & finally LPD lesson, then a lot of ppl was presenting, after that was felicia presenting on a gurl on Charmaine, who was a very pitiful gurl...& lessons ended at 1.20pm like that...late by 20mins to see everyone finish presenting...

then ii meet dear at bishan circle line station there, we went to suntec to shop eat see...wahahas...so tiring sia...after that, we went hm at around 4+pm...then dear come to my hse to talk talk...then 6.15pm leave my hm...ask him go hm...then end up he went to punggol park to create a surprise for me without me knowing...omg...he waited till 8.30 then call me to ask me go dwn to punggol park...he use the "sparkles" to create the word ' I love (in the shape of heart)' without the U...then light it up...then ii was curious, so ii asked...why is 'U' not there? then he said...no space...lols...after that, we cleared up all the burnt sticks & went to sit & talk...then walk up to play the swing & see saw up & down...lols..childish right, for a couple aged 19 to play there...
ii was really very surprised by what he does...so happy & touched...thanks dear, ii love uu...