seriously, throughout this whole year, i have been getting along badly! >.< studies? work? relationships? families?
Studies first
really lazy to study! diploma plus? wth! damn bored! ii just kept feeling to drop this module since i am not able to get in to university!
but i am really happy that i got in to the Overseas Immersion Programme (OIP) Xiamen for 5 weeks, duration of 35 days from 5 Sept to 9 Oct 2011. It has been a tough trip there, cos of loads of assignments to do. but some ppl makes the trip so sucky! hais! life sucks no matter where i am.
After coming back, i have got financial problems! damn! when i left to Xiamen, spend a lot, after i came back to Sg, payment for sch fees, another hefty sum of money! felt like going to work, but it just seems that its so hard for me to go find a job. then sch work are so busy & tiring. Projects this semester are always done last minute, making my life so tiring! hais! ii am just so tired of doing last minute work. Of cos, some ppl prefer to do last minute work and claim all those credits, but the thing is, did they do those beforehand stuffs to prepare for the finals.
Family second
After returning from the 35days of trip, family conditions & bondings doesnt seems to get any better, but even worser. of cos, it should not be revealed. nvm, it shall be kept deep in my heart!
some frustrations will help!
Financing third
ii am just so tired! r/s? work? family? everything is not going well! hais! ii am in nd for finance! but no job suitable :( payment for sch fees, insurance, handphone bill! how great to be in this type of feelings.
today! i totally declare that my ATM card is not gonna be with me! so i can restrict spending too! guess its gonna be a gd idea for savings. hope i dun spend too much!
Working as promoter is really a no-no! my leg is aching like damn painful! hais!
Working at USS is also nono, the feeling there is super tense, so different from the past when i just got in.
i really experienced and seen a lot of people from all walks of life, it just sucks to see how people are like this, and i felt disgusted! hais!
Relationships fourth
Sometimes i just feel like i am a flirt! i kept changing bf! but who knows the reasons why i kept changing?
i knw i couldnt get a bf who is willing to convert to same as me "Vegetarian", therefore, what others wants to say, just let them do it. Even though a guy treats me damn good, but if he cant satisfy this, i also cannot be with him i guess. I knw i am selfish, but i cannot change my mindset, cos i believe in mine, and of cos, he believe in his! so who knows what my future will be like :( i guess my plight will be like this
reference/source: http://welovestyles.com/good-quotes-for-love-to-live-by/
Was with Ryan since 2nd Dec 2011, how long could i last with him? will it be long or short? our religion crash again! sians ttm! today marks the 2mths anniversary, but we wun be meeting cos i have to study! postponed to tml. my dad seems not to like him. awww! die liaos
My wants are the last!
ii have a lot of wants! but not able to satisfy them! ii hate myself! FML! but this wants are not needs! i can only desire to have but not able to have it!
DSLR? Havaianas? all are such high expenses! just dream of it ok! stupid carolyn! damn u! ass!
Overall posting, life just sucks!
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