holidays period

my whole holiday was spent working at USS, thats a damn cool place that ii ever worked before...ii love the environment, the ppl but nt really irritating guests...and work at Robinsons and Tangs as well...as usual, its a boring place, but than, ii have no choice, have to work and earn money...sians sians sians...

days of holiday pass so fast...it just seems that a month is over alrdy...there is gd news from sch - results, enrollment to diploma plus program and perfect timetable for sem 3...grats to me...but my days of holidays has nt been that happy...hais...lots of things happen...ii also dun knw what ii really wan...this sem 3 will be a very busy period for me...ii suppose its bad!

treasure and cherish those impt person around uu...but for me, ii cant feel that...nvm...things is hard to continue saying...long story...ii only love emo songs...thats awesome, and ii will reflect on a lot of things that happen...humans are weird, when uu gt a problem, another tries to help uu solve it fully, they think that its so damn easy for them to say, but when it comes to action, its different...its easier said than done...so when that person has gt problem, uu try to help him/her solve, they think that its redundant, as ii am in no position to do that...so what can ii say? win liaos lorhs...hais!

left 1week and 3days before sch reopen, so no one to go out & ii am damn busy! hais!ntg to do, say or done! emptiness is the only thing...

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its friday again, had a super hard weekdays, all schooling days are packed with projects, tutorials & lectures, and peer tutoring somemore without enough slp daily, ranging frm 3hrs to 5.5hrs each day till nw...so shag sia...

monday went to meet him, something happen, than emo all the way...

tues, 9-7, than met him at NEX, bought a spec and ate pizza hut...

wed, schooling till 5, went to someplace to get something...reach hm around 8.30...chiong project, researching for articles and read miec for thurs tutorial...slept at 3.11am

thurs, 9-7 again...than went hm and slack....watch tv and eat...omfg!

fri, 8-12, lucky no tennis make up lesson, shiok...but damn sians, never start reading on anything yet... :(

obse test is coming on next tues, and ii haven write my notes :( hais...no mood, think ii am missing something frm my daily routine...sians...he is outside, went to someplace, normally this tym is cam tym, and nw, dun have, ii seems to have lost something...ii felt lonely & sians nw... :(

researching for something, and found this website! omg! http://www.funnzie-cam.com/instant.html & http://instaxlovers.blogspot.com/
 polaroid camera is cool, but will ii be wasting money if ii buy it? film is exp lorhs...arghh! the mickey film damn nice...omg!

blogshop that sells super duper nice accessories...
http://smoothysilk.blogspot.com/

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this few days damn sians, a lot of shocking news that idk it shld be a gd news or a bad news that ii shldn't be hearing...hais...frm this and that...having a very confused mindset...actually it has alrdy been set to be a final decision, just that, ii just felt bad towards some of them...ii really dun knw what ii shall do...ii let go, but they didn't...ii always feel awkward to them, dun knw hw to face them....its like, confusing :( hais...

sch really sucks, once ii go back to sch, they said there is 2 test coming, first is obse on 18th, second is statistic test 2 on the 19th...but gd news is that ii didnt fail any of my common test module, thats the most lucky thing...phew...the worse is actually miec, waited till thurs, saw my results, ii was over the moon, as long as ii didnt fail any, hehes...overall still quite ok...hahas!!!! 

my skin complexion sucks sia...pimples, dark eye circles, not enough slp...and ii just realized that my cough havent really healed fully, this sucks ttm... :( ppl say that rest more is to be able to walk through a further route, yes ii agree, but tym dun permit... :( 

so bored, did ii make the wrong decision? did ii do wrong frm the start? did he said the truth? am ii very bad? maybe ii am, ii just cared about myself, yes? yes? ii think it is...

withdrawing frm uu all, this is better? ii avoid uu, uu say ii dun wan to be friend...ii close to uu, leading uu to have the wrong impression...what shld ii really do? ii am really confused!!!

what uu see in front doesnt mean that its the truth! wrong perception! are uu able to understand a nt? uu say uu do, but ii dun think so...ii hate myself!

04-01-2011

its finally 2011....although ii was sick throughout my whole holidays, a lot of things happen regardless of happiness & sadness...its boring & tiring cos of working nonstop till the 2nd week, happy cos ii met someone new, and he gave me somethings that most ppl dun, sad cos of rejecting someone a lot of tyms...ii dun wan to hurt him, but end up ii hurt him...

23-12-2010
went out with my family except kor kor to haw par villa, the ten courts of hell was the most interesting thing there that ii haven seen...than ate at tampines...went sheng siong buy food...

24-12-2010
went out with kk to pasir ris, he gave me a christmas gift, and ii didnt gave him any cos ii didnt prepare...

25-12-2010
met bai jing jing after work, went to esplanade and than eat ice cream...eat & chit & chat...

31-12-2010
met hy & kk to esplanade there to countdown...damn funny incident happen...those kiasu indians kept pushing, dun knw hw to wait, ii hate it, than hy scold, ii laugh like mad again...than we sat dwn & ate yam ice cream..after that ii played my veggie samurai, addictive man, ii gt high score 2153, they cant beat me, ii so happy! yeah! when we went hm, the cirle line train door suddenly opened, scare hy to hell! ii still can rmb the image, thats yy mrt always says do not lean on the train doors, nw ii understand what it meant...than ii walked hm, thought that there was no bus anymore...halfway through, ii saw a bus 80 pass by, ii ji tao sian diao...arghh!!

01-01-2011
this is gonna be a gd yr, first kiss to hy, cos we saw a couples there intimately la-ji-ing, damn funny! laugh like mad...the fireworks was cool & nice, but than, kanna blocked by big building...sians diao!!!

02-01-2011
went to tian guo, yi mai hui, eat foods & stuffs, than went hm do tutorials...

03-01-2011
back to sch, slept only 5hrs, cant slp, sians...why ppl  no need go sch except for poly students :*(
than met BJJ, went to aljunied to eat than to his hse, met his parents, shocking but funny...he so fortunate... aww...must treat him like da shao ye liaos lorhs...