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actually dun wan to come blogging...

had bcomm presentation, brought cakes to sch to present on mr george quek, still fine...last presenter of the day...than went to do itb ppt, and met meixin, we actually wanted to go to buy shorts for our s&w lesson, but, she went out with her ex classmates, so postpone, felt paisei if her friends went out without her...so ii left first, than she called me to say she want to go out with me, but ii still decided to left first...so ii went home...

than played with gui gui and do some revision, but today's pace was fking slow...ii haven do anything at all...tmd!

ii am too sad...my gui gui just died...before that, ii was playing with it, talking to it, changing the water...but than, around half an hr ltr, ii found it dead, tried to revive it by touching it, but it gave no reaction :( it was in reverse side, than mouth was opened...ii was super shocked, hw can it died when ii was playing with it just nw? ii dun understand...ii really dun understand, ii talked to him, he reacted, and opened his eyes to look at me while ii am cleaning his arms and legs and shell...it was my favourite tortoise out of the 4...hw can he died without even saying good bye to me? seriously sad, crying nw...he had been with me from 4 september when ii bought it together with ah de...but today 8 november, he left me... :'( 2 mths 4 days of fun with guigui...ii missed uu alot...ii am sry for never take care of uu well enough, ii dun even knw what happen to uu...ii am sry :(

another wugui, xiaobai, its nt eating any food that ii gave him to eat, idk why nt eating as well..think ii will be bringing it to the vet...hais...

a lot of things happen this few months, have bf, than some fights/quarrels, than break up...so, its a cycle again...ii have decided nt to have bf again in this 2.5yrs till ii complete my poly life, ii am tired of all those sadness...seriously, ii cant take it...

why do everyone have to leave me just when ii needed them most?

ii think ii am just someone unimportant towards someone..someone who doesnt have any feel, someone whom uu might hate/regret forever, cos its just someone unimportant in ur life due to some problem...no matter what, ii still can rmb what uu said to me, ur warmth, ur voice, ur expression, ur smile, ur whatever thing, and where ever we go, ii still can rmb... but the only thing is that, it all goes down to the drain... :(

sad things happens together & together & together...hais...life still goes on...when can ii die? anyone let me knw pls, at least ii can do whatever ii wan to...just like, my gui gui, who look at me before his last breath :'(

last thing, SCH SUCKS!