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16.12.2010

today is the date whereby my mum and dad 26th wedding anniversary and its the last test for this term, which is miec, this srsly sucks, the paper is a definite killer, it might make me fail, so if ii fail, it will be a gone case, and it willl lead to KPT suaning me to hell, idk hw either...v scare that she will suan me when sch reopens...hais...

study for what? study so hard, end up dun even knw hw to apply the concept to the questions, all thanks to her...if ii pass, ii happy, if fail, be prepared to let her suan.... god bless me that tym liaos lorhs....

holiday officially starts at 3.05pm, but ii am nt happy at all... :( ntg can describe my feelings nw...

ii have also decided to forget about him, we are over, and wun be together again, dun knw why, when ii see his family pic, than ii decided to forget him...back to friends as per normal if he is alright...that day when talk to him, plus everything so stressed up, nearly, dun even wan to study for test, but than after ii cried, ii can be able to study...

ii am beginning to feel that ii am nt as gd as the past...in the past, ii am independent, not afraid of a lot of things, but nw, ii feel so dwn, no confident in myself, whatever ii do is meaningless...idk what ii shall do also...hais...

just read someone blog, ii have no idea that he has a blog, after ii read it, ii suppose ii knw what is he thinking of nw, he treat me so good, good until ii really dun knw hw to say, he can sacrifice other things just to accompany me, but medicine for me when ii am sick, spend a bomb on my birthday which is just a normal & simple day to others, but its very special to me...yet ii didnt appreciate, ii always keep being so fed up with him, a bit than scold him, ii knw its nt right, but than other than this, ii really dun knw what ii shall do, ii am confuse, idk whether to accept him a nt, idk whether its love or its because he is too good to me, thats why ii accept him...but than if ii dun accept, ii just felt bad towards him...srsly, ii am in a confusing state of mind! ii really dun knw what ii shld do...hw? my mind & heart just dun work together, idk what ii wan nw!!! ii hate myself for being such a person like this...ii am afraid of hurting him as well...he has seen me through so many r/s, happy and sad times, why would he still like me? ii dun understand as he is quite an introvert :(

as for school, things always dun go smoothly for me, ii scare ii cant make it to lvl 2 cos ii might be failing one module...things that ii learn nw is getting harder and harder, ii dun like, but ii cant do anything, cos ii need to get this cert, if nt, ii really will be ntg in the future...

as for friends, ii missed my ite friend - felicia, but than ii dun have tym to spare to go out...ii also missed my cdac friend - sukping, secondary sch friends & my darling hweeyee...ii <3 uu all , but hard to go out with uu all cos ii am broke, need to work :(

as for all my darlings in poly, they are a bunch of fun loving ppl that ii ever met in the whole of my life...can uu imagine that, because of them, ii became more outgoing and happy, if nt ii might have just quit my poly alrdy, its too stressful for me to take it...cos ii cant take it and they kept supporting & helping me whenever ii have doubt on sch work...other than sch work, we also talk about out personal lifestyles and so on...but of cos, somethings are still kept as a secret in order nt to spoil my image within them...hahas! 

the beginning of my holidays doesnt seems to be a holiday, it just seems to be study period for some modules, ii srsly hate sch!!! ii wanna enjoy it but than ii am demoralized by this miec paper... :( ii wan go drink, so sad :( ii wan go slack with hweeyee, so we can voice out things that we wan to say, whatever also can, no secrets :(

lastly, life sucks! emo emo emo all the way, the songs that were being shuffled, all emo type also, my com really knows me well <3 my com..

13 dec 2010

misses, misses, misses, ii missed uu :'( if tym turns back, what will ii do?
stupid studies, why gt test? ii am gonna peng kui liaos!
feel like giving up, ii really really gonna break down liaos...
test on wed and thurs, haven study much, what shall ii do? ii really dun knw, no mood to study :(

13 dec

misses, misses, misses, ii missed uu :'( if tym turns back, what will ii do?

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today's date is like binary number, overslept and slp till 6.30, awake by mummy, than wake up, hurry bath and went out, met huilin in sch at 8plus, than went to makan place to eat...during the trip to sch, a guy sat beside me and than knock on me, slp straight till the bus stop and never wake up, kana scare by him, duhh, its kind of awkward when ii see him, diao...than went to atrium to mark my miec tutorial answers...than ii am feeling so slpy, ii scare ii fall aslp during bstats lecture...shucks...so hard man...arghh!

during break, went to find zhilin, shuting, rachel, yushan, we chat about stuffs, some scary & funny things happen...really never knw when ppl never says, as they dun show things on the surface...so, ii am so shocked to hear somethings...hahas...

than went to OBSE tutorial, that teacher dun let us use lappy, idiot sia, all answer inside lehs, sians diao! cant use anything...than end at around 4.35, rush hm than go to work...eat & get changed, than rush to work, reach at 7...boss schedule put me till 10, but auntie wee tells me ends at 11, diao! super shag luhhs!

went hm together with han tian, than we took train to hougang, so late, reached at 1145pm...shag! than he go his way, ii go my way...reach hm, change wugui's tank water, than bathed and chat with my friend and otw to slp at 1.30 ii think... thats all!

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today was such a tiring day for me, slept roughly 8 to 9hrs for 2 days alrdy, super shag...going sch with huilin was fun, hahas, a lot f interesting happens...than bstats tutorial, so blurry...sians lorhs...hais...met zhilin in the morning at atrium, she so funny luhhs, than she and jessie walked to blk 72 together, dating sia! arghh! jk...

ii am so bored, hais...went to eat pancake at canteen 2, than go BIT workshop & tutorial, 5 minutes presentation than start of with discussing of project...my brain is nt working, than ii kept on can't click with them, they say this, ii say that, machiam out of point :( like never do anything regarding the project...

class ends at 3, went to atrium, waited for meixin, went to PS to buy shorts, ii wanna buy tennis racket! but kind of exp... :( she is so sweet, she bought me a chocolate crossiant... :D than after that ii met koonkiat to go NLB to study after dinner at BB there...than do finish my miec tutorial...its like finally, hope ii am on the correct track...

take bus hm, saw korkor when alighting and asked him to help me take my lappy home, so relieved!

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actually dun wan to come blogging...

had bcomm presentation, brought cakes to sch to present on mr george quek, still fine...last presenter of the day...than went to do itb ppt, and met meixin, we actually wanted to go to buy shorts for our s&w lesson, but, she went out with her ex classmates, so postpone, felt paisei if her friends went out without her...so ii left first, than she called me to say she want to go out with me, but ii still decided to left first...so ii went home...

than played with gui gui and do some revision, but today's pace was fking slow...ii haven do anything at all...tmd!

ii am too sad...my gui gui just died...before that, ii was playing with it, talking to it, changing the water...but than, around half an hr ltr, ii found it dead, tried to revive it by touching it, but it gave no reaction :( it was in reverse side, than mouth was opened...ii was super shocked, hw can it died when ii was playing with it just nw? ii dun understand...ii really dun understand, ii talked to him, he reacted, and opened his eyes to look at me while ii am cleaning his arms and legs and shell...it was my favourite tortoise out of the 4...hw can he died without even saying good bye to me? seriously sad, crying nw...he had been with me from 4 september when ii bought it together with ah de...but today 8 november, he left me... :'( 2 mths 4 days of fun with guigui...ii missed uu alot...ii am sry for never take care of uu well enough, ii dun even knw what happen to uu...ii am sry :(

another wugui, xiaobai, its nt eating any food that ii gave him to eat, idk why nt eating as well..think ii will be bringing it to the vet...hais...

a lot of things happen this few months, have bf, than some fights/quarrels, than break up...so, its a cycle again...ii have decided nt to have bf again in this 2.5yrs till ii complete my poly life, ii am tired of all those sadness...seriously, ii cant take it...

why do everyone have to leave me just when ii needed them most?

ii think ii am just someone unimportant towards someone..someone who doesnt have any feel, someone whom uu might hate/regret forever, cos its just someone unimportant in ur life due to some problem...no matter what, ii still can rmb what uu said to me, ur warmth, ur voice, ur expression, ur smile, ur whatever thing, and where ever we go, ii still can rmb... but the only thing is that, it all goes down to the drain... :(

sad things happens together & together & together...hais...life still goes on...when can ii die? anyone let me knw pls, at least ii can do whatever ii wan to...just like, my gui gui, who look at me before his last breath :'(

last thing, SCH SUCKS!

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ii was trying hard to study for the 3 weeks of study break cum yog break, but end up, ii went out to shop, play, meet dear and work except for studying, damn jialat...

when the exams come, ii was struggling to understand for the last tym before ii went in for exams, damn relax for accounting...lols!!! than the others - management, macroeconomics and finally law...stupid maec falls on 4th sept...it was dear's birthday!!! than finish exam ii so happy, cos ii can celebrate his birthday together & can wear couple shirt colours...but end up, ii wore grey he wore black...even though was a bit disappointed but nvm luhhs, cos he cant find...& ii bought him a bracelet with his name "Ah De" engraved on it...he said he likes it..hahahs...ii am happy also...went to ECP to fly kite & ate lunch at kallang...than we bought gui gui & wugui...one at his hse and the other at mine...so cute lorhs...

than ii brought gui gui hm, the name was given by dear...so ii wan my gui gui to have the same birthday as dear as well, as its the first day we adopted him...than my didi also wanna yang wugui, we bought another 3 again....damn siao lorhs...total 4 wugui at my hm...but he lazy to yang...

after the final exams, on 8th sept...ii went hm & never go out cos gt bai bai...than 9th start working...so boring luhhs...so from than on, ii always work and off day clean my hamster cage and guigui's tank de water...

ii bought something for him again, haven gave him yet, was thinking whether he will like it a nt...hw would he react...today, ii just felt that he was so cold to me...after work, went to somerset, ii wan buy shoe, but that one so dirty, so end up ii never buy, clothes also...sians lorhs...ii wan that bag, shirt, and shoes...but...hais...ii have been feeling so cold for the whole day today...dun knw why so jialat...hais... :( maybe its a symptom of bad things that is going to happen, ii feel like going to see a fortune teller about my life...is it smooth or rocky? ii really dun knw....damn sians...hais...

koonkiat birthday on 20th sept...lols!!! ii am surprise ii am the first to send him birthday msg on the wall... :D

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WOOHOO!!!!!!!!
my name represents this:

C: People cant help but check u out


A: Best Gf/Bf any one could have

R: You love to kiss

O: Best kisser ever

L: Awesome kisser

Y: Worth waiting for....

N: Beautiful
 
but ii think no link =.=
 
anyways, ii just help didi do a doraemon lantern for 3.5hrs =.= damn it, its super tiring...

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went to courts expo sales, was looking out for a camera, end up ii really bought a camera, happy sia...it was a samsung brand, i like...yeah... :D cost $189 with 8gb memory card...than went to robinson expo sales buy brandless perfume & maybelline mascara, sians, dun have the liquid eyeliner that ii wan... :( but nvm, still gt the camera...

the bottle damn nice lorhs

than daddy came, and something v sians happen, hais...we ate at tampines than to giant to shop for didi derhs bolster...sians...than went hm...slept at 3am

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woke up at 8plus, met dear in the morning around 10am, than he came in my hse to rescue me cos my key is with him, super funny, before he came, ii still ask him where to meet, lols!!! bus stop somemore...hahas...than went to blk 501 to eat, and walked to hougang mall, eat ice cream than went to work...sians, v bad things lorhs..ii hate CP...around 5plus, mrs chan still called me to ask me whether ii wan to meet her tml in sch to help me with poa, so ii agreed...than another person call me, asked me whether wan to work part time, than he will call and check for me...hope got news, so ii can change job...stupid ting ting, ask me wait for her, than she walk diff route, sometimes so angry :@ slept at roughly 1am

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woke up at 6, mummy prepare a custom-made subway bread...so full...hahas...but is damn nice, met yushan at around 7, lols...bus 74 run. we took 74e...so cold sia, lend her my jacket to use...than meet zhilin at 8.20am, walk to blk 72 to look for teacher...consult her for poa till 11am...super long tym sia...tired lorhs...than went home, met mummy & daddy for lunch at blk 435...than something happen again...hais...

mummy make de

met kk at 3plus, studied at mac till 7 when hy come, than went up to eat breakfast, so funny, stupid hy do stupid and retard action, so kept slapping her...hahas...went home at 9plus, watched chnl 8 than chnl U the 10pm show, cried again cos it just seems so touching and sad... :(

others in fb, damn slow, ii lazy to wait, is like super long... =.=

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slept at 4am, wake up at 12plus, cos dear dear sms me, than ii finally wake up...lols!!! than ate breakfast, watched yog- trampoline, walao ehs, interesting and nice...it seems fun but not for me...lols!!! the spring might just break...hahas...than brother give problem again, sore throat soon...
ii bought dear sugar coated pizza & he bought me mango (cake/crossiant), so sweet right...met dear at yishun, ate pasta mania - al funghi & veggie supremo pizza, nice lehs...lols!!!

my mango thingy from dear, sweet hors...

dear enjoying his pizza, its delicious...

our leftover pepsicum...lols!!! done by dear....hahas... the love is made of chilli...he still use tissue to make the shape...so xi xin...thanks dear... :)

me & him.. <3

went his hse watch tv with him, hehes...than went home, forget to take my key, due to his sudden tickle attack...arghh...than left at his hse, borrowed key from freddy...lols!!! lucky sia...than at hm hear a lot of siao kia shouting and screaming =.= at this time 12-1plus...

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today so shiok lorhs, wake up go eat breakfast @ 356, rotiprata, than buy bread...than go mall, pay HDB thingy, than shop around there...come back use com...than prepare dinner, lols!!! my wanton, gt a lot of weird shape initially, but eaten...lols!!! and its all fried by my didi, pro sia...than went to punggol park to gether with him to exercise, shyt sia, he lousy...cant run, so we walk, and ii walked backwards...lols!!! than ii saw sebastian, but ii never called him, cause he was cycling with his gf, so sweet, he ferry her...hahas...ii scare she jealous sia, ii think they are together for quite long lerhs...pro sia...nvm...ii also hope ii can...below is the pics of my dinner...still gt 2 dishes, didnt take picture of it...lols!!! but it was superb...finally gt rice to eat...hahas...

 moth lehs while ii was watching tv...so nice right? idk who is it luhhs, but it linger in my home for quite a while...maybe some relative...

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doing the same routine again...went to work...hahas, it was funny, ii reached and punched card at 1118am, same as ytd...lols!!! than went there, talk to jenny, help her do the fb thingy...damn funny sia...

went to break at 4pm with the sintex auntie...she eat damn fast...lol!!! than ii stayed there, eat my tau suan and toasted bread...use fb for a while using wifi...than went back to work at 5...so bored, ii stand there for almost 20mins, than boss come...wtf!!! ii was playing games at that moment...lucky he make noise, if not, he stand beside me see me play games ii also dun knw...lols!!! damn scary can a nt, somemore today sales nt good... :(

than went home at 9.20...so boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! watched tv and news a while...than bathed, wash shoe and found out that it spoil liaos...kns...need buy a new one liaos...

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sians lorhs, today gt to work...hais...11.30 to 9...end up extending to 9.30...

as usual, it was boring when it comes to work, especially nw, yog, schooling, working ppl, where got customer sia? slack, smses & talk to my colleague...damn sians lorhs...whole day only sell 3 items...damn jialat...my competitor sell so much lehs... :( than darran entertaining sia...keep saying all those things...lols!!!

my dear de sms make me smile like mad...he said :
i love u
u have a nice everything
u make me smile
u should kiss kiss me more
someday i will make u my laopo
u + me = lao fu qi
if i saw u now i will hug u & kiss non stop
i wan to _____ for  uu & _____ uu :$
i would build a paradise for us
i will sing anysong for u
we will lang man under the rain

its so sweet that ii kept laughing...

than saw hweeyee de tag on fb, she tag me on the ocean heaven, ii secretly laugh at food junction again...the hand and what kk says...hen xiang slap hweeyee lehs!!!!!!!!! lols!!! ii bth

than went to amk, get something so nice...hahas...dear dear anticipating barhs...let uu see on fri...but bad news is that he kanna confine on sat, and ii have to work on sun...so we lose 2 days of meeting time again...but nvm, gt our future...wahahas... :D

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went home after breakfast at 9plus...than bathed, washed my ytd derhs clothes...so scare still reek of that smell...so washed alrdy, go wryte notes...and than blow dry my hair, dear dear de sms so cute, dun let me dan xing bout uu can a nt, hurry go slp, sayang uu while uu slp...so sweet sia...ii just love the way he is...hahas...

than slept from 11plus till 3plus, and woke up...than use com to play things, watched a v touching video clip on fb, and shared it, ii cried like mad sia...just dun knw why, the tears just dropped out when ii see the soldiers wearing the shirt and appear in front of their loved ones, than they hug each other and cried...it just seems to be me in the scene...so touching...

initially have nasi lemak to eat, all thanks to kaihong for making everyone have to eat maggie mee...than we just sat dwn at living room, damn shiok luhhs, ii watched tv all the way sia...from 5plus till 11pm...pro...all the show so nice...hahas...long tym never watch tv lerhs...somemore for so long...meanwhile was sms & msn-ing dear dear...he so cute...hees...than helped hweeyee do some blog thingy...lols!!!

ii am slping soon, have promised dear to slp at 1200/0000...he even asked me to report strength...so cute luhhs...ii burst into laughter in the living room just nw, lucky nt that loud, if nt  my mum might send me to IMH...lols!!!

ii miss uu, dear... :$

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on 15 aug, ii slept till 11plus, than woke up, to my horror, my auntie came to look for me, and ii gt cramp...than ate breakfast cum lunch and found out there is some kind of wormlike thingy (shell) in the vegetables, fk man, damn disgusting, ii throw away the leftover food... :(

than use com and wait for hweeyee to come my hse, initially said she wan to come at 1,end up came at 3...diaos...plan was almost destroyed... :( than ii helped her make up...like chio bu lorhs... hehes, all my "jie zuo", thanstill helped her to sew her cardi...wapiang...undo and redo lorhs...damn it...ii didnt even sew mine myself but helped her, see ii so good...so she owed me 1 subway meal...

chio bu hors...my artpiece...lols!!!

than left at 5, to hunt for some gifts for my darling janice...and we booked a movie 'ocean hunter', this was damn touching...omg...as ii gt put eyeliner, ii cant cry, but ii did cry, so sad lorhs...it was super terrible feeling...

than at vivo, there was a pair of stupid parents with one innocent girl...the dad was pushing the pram down the escalator w/o buckling the belt, than the small girl just fell off and rolled down...OMFG!! it was super pain luhhs!!! than her face was red and cried loudly... ouchie...ii felt so pain for her, and she was so innocent to experience that...

ate dinner at PS after movie...than went to meet janice at orchard plaza as we were going to neverland...hy still tried to scared kk for the recent fighting case there, kk was scare the shit out of him...hahas...than her friends came, we went to neverland and sat...than 1145, ii met alvin, yutai and friends they all to give her a surprise birthday cake and their appearance, than walked in and sang the birthday song for her...she was super happy and touched, tears nearly came out from her eyes...than enjoyed till 4.30,

HAPPIE BURTHDAE JANICE, I LOVE UU!!!

and THANKS  DEAR FOR NOT SLPING COS UU ARE WORRYING BOUT ME...SRY FOR NT LETTING UU SLP...I LOVE UU TOO :D

preparing for the surprises

more pics on her blog, will steal once she upload...lols!!!

we went to this lan shop at parklane...blogging nw...ltr going for mac breakfast, so hungry lerhs...yeahs...ii shall stop now...

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woke up at 8, went running with dear & go for breakfast...than go home, went to swimming @ anchorvale there together with hy & dear dear, play like mad-the slides and jacuzzi, and drink a lot of disgusting water sia, ii kanna sunburn...super kua zhang, only for a while...frm 1 - 5, roughly there, somemore the weather is like a while good a while bad...went to jacuzzi, a girl kept sitting so close to dear, ARGHH!!! :@ than he need to move near me cos of that girl, than cannot "xiang shou"...hy keep seeing guys lorhs, and saw that ang moh who appear in chnl 8 the chinese thingy...than she disturb them...lols!!! super funny...

than go subway dinner again, hahas...so nice, the veggie patty than dear go hm and changed to meet his friend...than went for walk at sk than mrt to hougang...saw him waiting for train as well, so shocked sia...hahas...and so qiao...really fated... muahahas..
than went home...boring...

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firday the 13th, somemore on the 7th mth...

study a bit again...than met dear for movie followed by dinner @ pasta mania...watched salt...damn nice lehs...than walked home...

things doesnt seems to be the same...dun knw yy, is it due to ytd stuffs or is ii too sensitive...

hate sch, srsly...ii wanna quit sia...wu you wu lui duo zi zai...hais :(
teeth like turning slanted due to the wisdom teeth at the back...damn pain...hais...
shoulder aching too...hais...

so many hais, can go competition liaos...

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slept for almost 10hrs if ii am nt wrong, woke up, do facial mask while studying, peel off mask somemore, damn freaking pain luhhs...than went to eat breakfast cum lunch at blk435 there, than go home, watch tv, wait for didi to come home...he eat, ii bathed, and prepared to go out...


went to little india do eyebrow threading...damn pain luhhs...ii yao jin ya gen lorhs... :'( tears drop out from my eyes...pain sia...drank chendol...normal only...and went to tekka mall, shop in and sheng shiong...spend a lot again...send mummy and didi to hougang...than take all the way to punggol while waiting for kk, cos he never reply me...sians...ii wait and wait...than ii slept on mrt, just when ii open my eyes, ii saw kk with his friend...than he called me and ii answered, he kana shocked...hahas...


than went to aljunied there to meet hy on mrt, damn funny, she say ii am the best... lols!!! so great..we went to bugis, roma deli there to eat dinner, all set meal...hahas...nice nice food...so full...than went to iluma to shop for somethings, but cant find...than went to play arcade...wasted $30...hais...each person $10...just experience, it was quite fun, but ii still dun really knw hw to play...so stupid...


than somethings happen with me and him*...than my attitude gone worser...bad mood all the way...hy and kk so suay...so sry for my bad attitude... :(


than went to eat durian $10 at aljunied...lols!! that malaysian guy damn funny, keep dun wan to give up...than hy tell him that ii gt bf, than he gave up...lols!!! than otw hm play games...and talk and we reached my hse bus stop...waited for bus with them and went up home...

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woke up at 9 to prepare to go to work again...sians...was very reluctant to go...than reach there around 11...slack at canteen again till 1130 and go in to work...study in the meantime and zi lian for a while...ah ting so bad, keep bullying me... :(

than went to lunch with her, tau suan, tidbits and shop around...go back to work after an hr...sians..than cindy came...kana nag by her for saying that ii dun knw hw to do sales, insted of the KING KONG brand...ii just replied, go dig them over lorhs...nb sia...so tulan, everytym like that...

met hy after work, she so good...wait for me to end work than we go 313@somerset eat subway, wapiang, the first tym in my whole lifetime that ii ate subway, it was nice, but cannot always eat, if nt will become broke...hahas...than janice called to asked us to meet, weisheng drive, ah xiang was inside as well...than janice so good, tell me wrong info, say frm 313 go to OC the traffic light there, wapiang... than ii run, and she say go back to 313 de marvelous cream there =.= ...so pekchek, somemore after dinner lehs...still need to run...

than he drive us to marina barrage, slack, talk, and something very funny happen...weisheng wanna get a plump malay girl's number, laugh like mad...damn kajiao sia...ah xiang go and take the danger sign away and put at the other side...the guard so funny luhhs...hahas...we took lift to the rooftop, than she followed a bangalah out cos of the nice ringtone... LOLS!!!

than he send us home...ii still rmb, ii kept sliding on the seats after ah xiang gt down...lols!!! than come home blog again... :)