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it was 3am in the morning, someone slowly opened the door of my room, omg, then outside was so dark, and ii saw a shadow of a woman, it was my mum...LOLS...she said, still dun wan slp, study / watching show on my lappy, tml need go market, slp early, so waste electricity...lols...so ii tried to go and slp from 3.30...slept ad 3.50am & woke up ad 8.30...lols...ii am so pro...

so wash up & changed & eat roti-prata & went to the market...then see see look look...buy here buy there...then went to a hair salon, cos didi want to cut hair...so we sit there while he cuts his hair...then after that, ii asked him :yy do uu like ur hair? he said: cos very handsome...LOLS...ii told my mum, yy he so buai hia bai derhs ( wun be embarrassed) hahas,,,then we all laugh...after that, while waiting for bus to go home, ii said handsome boy, then my didi turn around & smile...wahahas...ii laugh at him again...say he wun paisei huhhs...ii not calling him lorhs...LOLS...

reach hm roughly 11am...then started to study again...boring...how ii hope that tml can pass by faster...yoohoo...then started to use com till nw...time is 11.21pm...LOLS...12+hrs lerhs...dun even have the mood to study for my adm exams tml...so end up playing FB all the whilee, wasting time, chatting...then till nw...ii just finished writing all the notes only...wth...12hrs+ study 3 chpt...so gonna do some burning of night oil tonyte...to manage to study finish & understand it...sians...nw ii only can manage to study at night...siao liao...my dark circles is very very deep lerhs...

ad 6.45pm...hweeyee came to my hse saying wanting to discuss about the chalet's thingy...end up we were talking a lot of things...lols...then we talk, play & upload photos...so funny...hahas...then left ad roughly 9pm...then pei her to the bus stop to wait for bus...hahas...then went back hm...so ii thought of a FRIEND of the past...who is erm...better not say it out...hais...think ii still cared about her...out friendship started being quite good from sec 3 which is 15yrs old & end at 18yrs old cos of 1 misunderstanding...think ii too gullible, everytime kana cheated by someone...so ii believed that someone & lose trust in my past FRIEND & even confronted her...hais...everytime ii went to see her blog...its like the guy doesn't love him anymore...what for still continue the r/s together & hurt herself deeply...but ii can only tell myself...ii can't tell her this right now...ii am just a nobody to her...thats all what ii think...hais...ii dun even have the rights to talk to her!!!

that time ii did a quiz from dun knw where, says ii will be patching up with my that friend...is it real?shld ii try it...actually ii have got no idea...ii am scare to go & talk to her again...thinks both of us hurts each other a lot...so what if ii talk to her again...will the hurt goes away???nw that ii didn't manage to cherish the time spent with her, ii can only make myself rmb in my memories - the times that we spent together doing good & bad things, having fun together, shopping, going suntan-ning @ sentosa, studying together...she even helped me to straighten my hair that tym...using her bare hands...why am ii so stupid not to cherish her & believe a guy who is my ex...wtf...ii think ii am not fit to have such a good friend...thats why ii am always not sociable...hais...

if only time can change back...ii will never ever say things that hurts her...ii am sry...(not able to name her out)

so now ii can only continue my life, or shld ii patch up with her again?if she had read my blog, then ii will not be so miserable right now...anyway...ii miss uu & has always been checking on uu...but of cos ii am not a stalker, just wanna knw hw have uu been...but it seems not very good...hais...

ii am going back to study again...sians...hope tml's paper will be easy, at least let me get a B if not an A luhhs...